Lyric 🦋
It was so much tension at the table I could pass out. It felt like I couldn't breathe. I wanted to enjoy my food but I felt like somebody would be mad that I was enjoying it.
What shocked the hell out of me was how mad London was. She was so mad, her face was red. I knew Rashad's problem with King but I didn't know London's. Maybe she was just mad because Rashad was mad.
"So when did you get back?" King asked me.
"A month ago." I said. "When did you get out?"
"Friday. Been laying low. You look good." I heard Rashad scoff.
"Thanks."
"King and Rashad. I need y'all to settle y'all differences." They mama Ms. Tiara said. "Y'all know how we feel about feud in the family."
"He was disrespectful."
"Nigga I was trying to look out for you."
"By calling me all kinds of pussy ass bitch niggas?"
"I apologize for that but I was mad that you went down this road. You was supposed to be a ball player and make it out this shit."
"Life happened King. I stepped up as a man. It is what it is. I don't hold a grudge against you but I won't take disrespect likely. I ain't the kid you knew before you got locked up."
"I see." He said. "No hard feelings though bro."
"Straight up." They slapped hands. Niggas make apologizing to other niggas look easy.
"LoLo fix yo face."
"Sorry MawMaw." I heard King chuckle and that made London frown deepen. "The fuck is funny?"
"London." Maw Maw and Ms. Tiara both said.
"You got a lot of animosity sweetheart. Is there a problem?"
"I just don't like you."
"Oh you don't like me now?"
"What's the issue?" Rashad asked frowning.
"Imma head out MawMaw." London got up.
"No you're not. Go in that backyard and take a breather." She huffed and did as she was told.
"Imma go check on her. Excuse me." I said leaving the table. I went in the backyard and she was pacing back and forth.
"London." She looked at me and I walked to her. "What's wrong? What's your issue with King?" She sighed.
"I'm always on you and Rashad head about honesty so I guess I don't have a choice." She looked up before looking at me. "Me and King used to mess around."
"What? How deep was it?"
"I was in love with him."
"Oh my Lord. When did? How did?"
"I was 15. He was 19. But King is so fucking toxic it's sad. Didn't never really break up. He went to jail and cut ties with me. Said he wanted me to live my life and not hold on to him because he didn't know how long he was go be in there." She bit her lip. "I was hurt as fuck. I'm a down ass bitch so I was ready to stand by him. Then I just figured he must've had his other bitches holding him down."
"Damn London."
"It just was stupid shit. He has taken to the point of no return on so many occasions. I hate myself for it."
"Don't. You were young and in love. Take everything as a life lesson. Not a regret." She nodded. "Rashad know?"
"Fuck no." She scoffed. "He would probably choke the shit out of me."
"He shouldn't be that upset."
"Lyric please. Rashad don't play around when it comes to me. That's his brother. He knows how his brother is, he would be pissed the fuck off."
"You're probably right. Let's go back and eat. Y'all know I like to eat and y'all tripping. Don't let no nigga see you sweat."
"You right. I just wasn't prepared to see him."
I wrapped an arm around her shoulder and we walked into the house. I seen King staring directly at her. Everything makes so much more sense now. I love knowing the tea.
"You okay LoLo?" Ms. Tiara asked.
"Yes ma'am. Just needed to get my mental together." She continued eating. I took that as an opportunity to dive in my food.
"So Lyric, you found a place to work yet?" Maw Maw asked.
"I'm going to Bartend until I find a place to open my dance studio."
"Please be careful. You're a beautiful girl and women been coming up missing and stuff."
"I will definitely be careful. I won't just bartend anywhere."
"Why don't you just bartend at Rashad club?" Ms. Tiara said and I looked at Rashad with a stank face before trying to play it off.
"I didn't know he had a club." I licked my lips. "But he's done enough for me. I want to do this on my own."
"I understand baby." Maw Maw said. "When you open that dance studio I wanna help out."
"You know how to dance MawMaw?" King chuckled. "Go on with ya bad self."
"You don't know nothing about me King." She rolled her eyes.
"I would love for you to help MawMaw." I smiled.
"Just don't break yo hip." King said and Rashad chocked on his drink trying not laugh.
"Y'all better get off MawMaw head." London frowned.
"Or what?" King smirked and kissed his lips towards her. She rolled her eyes and drunk her drink.
"Any who. Tiara go on and get that peach cobbler." I started dancing in my seat. I love peach cobbler.
"A damn shame." Rashad said to me. "Twerking for some food."
"I can twerk on something else." I whispered and he chuckled and licked his lips. I was about to say something to London but she was having a stare down with King.
I low key tried to kick her so Rashad wouldn't notice her ass. I wasn't trying to have this man choke her on the Lord's day. Any day if I'm being honest.
My phone started going off so I excused myself from the table.
"Hello."
"Hey sis, I was just checking on you." I smiled at the camera.
"I'm good Jazz, you okay? You need money?"
"I'm good. I got my own. Where you at?"
"LA."
"Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaa? Still?" She laughed. "You out there with yo soul mate?"
"I don't know who that is."
"Rashad bitch." I started laughing.
"That's not my soulmate."
"Mhmm. How granny treating you?"
"I left."
"What happened?" She frowned.
"She put her hands on me."
"You better not be in the streets Lyric."
"I'm not. I'm staying with Rashad."
"And I-oop." She laughed. "Okay fast ass. Make me an Auntie."
"Girl boo. Better holler at Kendrick or Harmony."
"Speaking of our siblings. West got a baby on the way."
"For real?"
"Mhmm. Not in his marriage though."
"Of course." I rolled my eyes.
"And I have to tell you." She sighed. "Anthony came by here looking for you." My whole demeanor changed. It felt like my body went cold from the mention of his name.
"What he want?"
"He was just looking for you Lyric. He started making threats but when I pulled my gun out he ran like the bitch he is."
"Please stay away from him Jazz."
"I will but make sure you stay away from him. That nigga is crazy."
"I know." I sighed.
"Honey Dimples." I jumped seeing Rashad in the doorway. "You good?"
"Rashad!!" Jazz yelled and I rolled my eyes. He walked over to me and grabbed my phone.
"What's good Jazz. See yo ass ain't little no more."
"Never. Grown woman status."
"She still a little girl."
"Girl boo. We a year apart. The fuck." Rashad laughed. "Take care of my sister Rashad. I would hate to have to kill you."
"You and yo sister some violent motherfucka's."
"Come to the A and ask about us."
"Oh for real?" He chuckled. "She straight with me though. I got her." He looked at me and smirked. That smirk did something to me.
"Don't let her fuck with yo head though. She's toxic."
"Jazz!" She busted up laughing.
"I love you sissy. I'll call you before I go to sleep."
"I love you too." We blew a kiss and she hung up. Rashad handed me my phone back.
"Who's Anthony?" Oh God.
"He's my ex." He stared at me and I knew he was reading me so I tried to stand my ground.
"You scared of him? Because yo energy shifted when his name was brought up."
"Yes I'm scared of him." He said nothing and nodded.
"We'll talk about it later." He grabbed my hand and we walked back to the dining room.
"You okay?" London asked.
"Yeah I was on the phone with Jazz." She nodded.
I sat down ready to dive in on this peach cobbler. As soon as it hit my tongue I let out an involuntary moan. It was just that good.
"Damn Lyric." Rashad laughed.
"Moaning and shit." King laughed.
"At least I know it's good." MawMaw chuckled.
"It's delicious." I ignored everybody else bullshit.
"You know how to cook?"
"Yes mama she do. Lyric be having a meal for me day and night without me even asking. It's fire too."
"Mmm. That's why yo behind haven't been over here eating up everything." MawMaw chuckled. "You gotta let me taste test yo cooking."
"Anytime."
"Well at least you won't starve like you did with Juicy." Ms. Tiara said.
"Juicy?" King asked. "You bagged that?"
"He was in a whole relationship with her." Ms. Tiara said.
"Well shit. I hope shit work out with y'all. I know she a little wild."
I peeped London roll her eyes hard as fuck and down her wine.
"He left that hoe." MawMaw said and I choked on my food. Rashad patted my back while rolling his eyes.
"All you need to know is she set me up. Can't come back from that."
"Shit." King scratched his head.
"But we not go speak on her no more." I smiled. "What you plan on doing now that you out?"
"I gotta talk to my bro bro about that but I don't plan on getting too deep again. Shit is stressful."
"I understand."
"Do you?"
"More than you know." He chuckled and looked down.
The doorbell rung and both King and Rashad went to answer it. Then we heard a bunch of yelling. I guess London recognized the voice because she frowned and got up quickly with all of us behind her.
"No London!!" Rashad snatched her back in the house.
"Let me go!" She tried pulling away.
I finally was able to look to see who it was and it was Juicy. It's only been a month and I'm tired of this bitch. She must have a tracking device on Rashad or some shit.
"Naw let the bitch outside Maniac!"
"I know you better get out my yard!" MawMaw yelled.
"Let me get her!!" London screamed.
"Let the bitch go so I can whoop on her ass."
I tried running past Rashad and King but Rashad grabbed me causing him to let go of London and she took off running and swung on Juicy.
"Shit." Rashad let me go and tried to break up the fight.
London and Juicy was now on the ground fighting but London had the biggest advantage. She was on top of her sending blows to her face. Juicy was still trying to grab her hair.
"London let go!"
"Lo!"
I went to try and help but MawMaw grabbed me.
"Don't do it Lyric." I huffed.
King finally got London off of Juicy and she was still swinging.
"Let me go!! That bitch ain't dead!"
Rashad helped this bitch off the floor and I don't know why but I was pissed off about it. Especially when he examined her face.
She had knots everywhere. Some new some old. Her cuts were reopened and her eyes were beginning to swell.
"You ain't had enough of getting yo ass beat Kiana?"
"Nigga please." She spit out blood. "I didn't get my ass beat yo weak ass new bitch bashed my head in the mirror."
"Weak bitch? First of all I'm not his bitch I'm his rider." I walked up on her. "What's good?" Before I was able to hit her Rashad picked me up and threw me over his shoulders. "Put me down!" He placed me inside the house.
"Stay here and calm down!"
"Where are you going?!"
"To handle her!" I rolled my eyes and walked off but he grabbed me. "Lyric."
"Go handle yo bitch." I spat. He looked at me and chuckled.
"Stay here tonight." He walked out the door and I bit my lip.
Why the fuck am I hurt? I hate this shit.
"Lyric?" I looked at MawMaw and she held her arms out. I walked to her snd gave her a hug. "You okay?"
"Yeah."
"You ain't gotta lie to me Lyric. I know the pain of being in love."
"I could never." I scoffed.
"I guess that's a similarity you and Rashad have. You deserve love and you deserve to be in love." My eyes watered. "It will hurt. It will put you through obstacles. But if that person is your soulmate let them in. But do not let anyone take advantage of you. Your peace of mind always comes first."
"Thank you MawMaw." I sniffed.
"Always baby." She wiped my tears. "Now go get cleaned up. I know that heffa has cuties." I chuckled. "You can sleep in Rashad's old room. He has a bathroom in there as well."
"Thank you."
"No problem. I'll ask Tiara for some night clothes for you. Go on." I nodded and headed to the room.
For a second I let myself be vulnerable but it ain't happening no more.
London 🥀
"Can you get the fuck out!!" I yelled rubbing my temples. "Matter of fact stay here! I don't live here anymore, I don't have to deal with this bullshit!" I scratched my head and looked for my purse but he grabbed me.
"LoLo."
"It's London to you." I spat. "Matter of fact call me Ms. Jones." I snatched my arm away but he grabbed me again.
"London please. Please calm the fuck down."
I turned away from him and took a deep breath. I decided to pray. I prayed for a peace of mind. I prayed for forgiveness. I apologized for my wrong doings and letting the devil take over me.
I opened my eyes and felt calmer. But I frowned again once I seen King still looking at me.
"I'm calmer now. I can go home."
"We need to talk London."
"About what? We have nothing to catch up on and no ties between us. I know you been in jail and I just been living life."
"What happened?"
"To what?"
"London." My eyes watered and I walked away from him.
"LoLo baby." I looked up at MawMaw. "What's wrong?"
"I need some air."
"Don't leave this house. Go to the backyard."
I quickly walked to the backyard and let out a breath I didn't know I was holding. Then tears began to fall.
I wanted to go home so bad but MawMaw don't let nobody leave the house upset since PawPaw died. He left the house upset and got in a car accident and died.
"Lord please. I beg you. I found peace with it. I tried to forgive. But it hurts."
"Please tell me what happened LoLo." I looked at him.
"I lost him." I cried. "I lost him because I had no control of my anger. I let Juicy get inside of my head and we fought and she kicked me in the stomach. He was a still born."
"London."
"I loved you so much that hearing that bitch talk about how much she had you while you told me you loved me made me lose control of myself completely."
"I'm sorry."
"Sorry isn't going to cut it King. I was young. I wasn't ready to be a mother. But I was going to step up and be the mother I was supposed to be because we laid up and made him. I loved you more than I loved myself. But for the first time I loved something more than you. Someone we created it." I cried.
"I was a mother and now I just feel like a monster." My lip quivered. "Anytime I let anyone take me there I feel low. My monster side made me lose our child King. Our child."
"Why didn't you call me?"
"What could you have done?!!" I snapped. "You were in jail. You told me you wanted nothing to do with me because you didn't want me stressing out over you. I was alone!!!" I screamed at him and punched him in the chest. "I had no one!!! No one could be there for me!! I couldn't even tell my brother, your brother the real reason why I hated Juicy!!" I continuously hit him in chest and he just held his hand up. "It hurts to even look at you!!" I cried. "I hate you!!!"
He grabbed my wrist and pushed me up against the house. I immediately looked away from him.
"I'm sorry London." I looked at him and his eyes were watery. "I don't wish what you went through on anybody. Imma handle Juicy I promise you that. And I'm sorry I did you like that. All this shit is on me." I looked down. "But." He picked my head up. "On everything I love, my love for you never went away."
"Stop."
"It wasn't your fault London. I shouldn't have touched no bitch knowing how I felt about you. I lost two pieces of me because of it. I'm sorry."
"Sorry won't bring him back." I spat coldly. "I learned that on my own."
Uncontrollable tears fell from my eyes. I was hurt. I am hurt. It's a pain that I will never go away. A pain from a loss of a child. A child you could've saved. MawMaw told me a long time ago, shit even my mama told me that my anger will cause me to lose something precious but I never thought it would happen so soon. At 17 years old I lost my son.
My son that I bonded with. I was heartbroken that I couldn't share the moment with somebody I loved just as much as him but I kept my head up like the real bitch my mama taught me to be.
Was people disappointed? MawMaw definitely was. But she never stopped looking out for me. My mama cried. She just wanted better for me. She wanted to help but it's not much a person could do from jail. Rashad didn't know. I hid my pregnancy from him like he was my dad or something.
I was small as fuck too and just when my belly began to grow and I learned what made him kick I lost him. And at that very moment I lost myself.
I wanted to kill Juicy but wanting to kill her reminded me of how I lost my child in the first place so I took it to God like MawMaw showed me. I prayed that I keep myself from that dark place. These past couple of days have been a test and I failed. I walked away from Juicy when she aborted Rashad baby. That was definitely a test. But for her to call out my fade like she wasn't on my hit list made me snap along with seeing King.
I wasn't ready.
"What can I do to fix this?"
"Leave me alone like you did 6 1/2 years ago."
He stared at me for a long time and then let my arms go. I began to walk away and he snatched me back and kissed me deeply. I hated myself for not pulling away.
"King." I moaned and he smirked letting me go.
"Like I said. Ain't shit changed." He walked away and I stood there looking stupid.
I hate toxic niggas.
My phone rung and I pulled it out my pocket seeing Keshawn calling me. Shit. I declined it and texted him, letting him know I'll call him back. If I didn't respond at all he would find out where I was and I didn't feel like explaining why I'm like this at the moment.
I wiped my tears and walked in the house and MawMaw was standing there with her arms crossed. I already knew she heard everything.
"MawMaw, I'm sorry."
"Why couldn't you tell me child?"
"I was afraid and disappointed in myself. You were already disappointed in the pregnancy. That would've took the cake."
"You thought I would tell Rashad?"
"Yes." I bit my lip. "But maybe if I was honest. Juicy wouldn't have been in the picture."
"Things happen for a reason. I told you that in the hospital." She sighed and walked over hugging me. "You prayed?"
"Yes ma'am. I just need to shower and rest."
"Stay here please. You know how I feel about anyone driving upset." I nodded. "Lyric is still here. Y'all might need each other."
"Okay."
"I love you little girl. Nothing will change that."
"I love you too MawMaw." She kissed my forehead and I knocked on Rashad's door.
"Come in."
I walked in and Lyric was sitting on the bed on her phone.
"Where's Rashad?"
"He left with Juicy." I sighed and closed my eyes sitting next to her. "Are you okay? I kinda heard some things."
"I'm feeling better."
"Why you never told me London?"
"It's painful to talk about. I trust you but my emotions overwhelm when I talk about it."
"You gotta tell Rashad eventually Lo. He will be upset but it'll hurt you if he mess with that girl again. She did you wrong."
"You think he'll mess with her again?"
"You just don't fall out of love with someone that quick. Even it they aren't meant to be he still had love for her. It's hard to let go of somebody when they been with you through dark times. Not even knowing they the demon."
"I'll tell him. I just gotta prepare myself for the outcome. A lot happened after that situation and if I would've been honest shit would be different."
"What happened?"
"I cut everybody off. That caused Rashad to confide in Juicy when MawMaw got sick. He thought I got jumped so he had Juicy fighting bitches not knowing it was her. I overdosed." I played with my fingers. "And while I was on drugs I cut Juicy's brakes, I cussed out Rashad numerous of times. I put Geno in the hospital."
"What? You know where he is?"
"I don't now but at the time he was in Bakersfield. I almost killed that man. Even while high and broken-hearted I still rode for King." I bitterly chuckled.
"You still love him?"
"I don't want to. But seeing him made my heart pump. But I.."
"You got love for Keshawn too."
"Exactly." She sighed.
"Sis this some shit." She chuckled making me giggle a little. "Just don't do drugs ever again. You can't go out like that. You're a blessing."
"Thank you... You okay?"
"I'm fine. If Rashad need me he know where to find me."
"Somebody catching feelings." I smiled fluttering my eyes and she rolled her eyes.
"I'm immune to feelings. I just don't wanna see him getting taken advantage of."
"Again."
"Exactly." She crossed her legs. "He put it in today."
"Oh bitch!" I yelled bored before laughing. "How? When? The fuck?"
"This morning. I don't know what took over me but I wanted to feel it and not in my mouth."
"Bitch." I laughed. "You were feigning?"
"Bad. But we didn't finish. He was in, I bounced on it, both was moaning and then you knocked on his door about Juicy."
"Damn, I'm a cock block." I frowned and she laughed.
"We'll just blame it on Juicy." She laughed. "But maybe you was supposed to block it for a reason because he was raw." My mouth dropped.
"Lyric."
"I know. It just felt so good." Her eyes rolled back.
"Girl." I laughed. "Welp I'm sorry for interrupting. But if a preview is making y'all this crazy for each other, y'all go be a problem when y'all make it each other cum."
"He not touching this."
"Lie to them other bitches, not me." She flicked me off making me laugh. "Can I sleep in here tonight?"
"Sure thing bestie." She smiled. "And just know whenever you need me, I'm there."
"I really appreciate you. I'm happy to have you back. I love Venus to death but I missed you so much."
"I missed you too. I'm not go pretend I didn't miss Rashad but y'all being at Clark with me reminded me where home and happiness really was. You picked my head up through some dark times LoLo and I will forever be grateful."
"Let me shower before you have a bitch crying." I laughed. "Can you get some changing clothes from MawMaw for me?"
"Yeah girl I got you." I went inside the bathroom and undressed.
I looked at myself in the mirror. Even though people tell me all the time not be self conscious I still am. I can't help myself. Especially when you was in love with somebody and it felt like you were never enough.
I gotta let him go though. I thought I was over him but I needed that cry earlier. It hurt but it was a relief. A relief I finally wanted.
*****
Hey Y'all!
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I'm almost done with The Originals and I wanna cry because I already know what happens. I hate getting attached to characters in that damn show 😭😭😭
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Anywhore
How was the chapter?
King?
Juicy ass popping up again?
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Lyric?
London?
London's Past?
What Jhene say?
Back Up On My BullShit
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