Baxter
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It's been 4 hours since mom was transmitted to the ER. The doctors took her in for a MRI, CT scan and there is still no answers. I'm getting very antsy and can't wait much long. As I see the nurse walk into the nurses station, I run up to her. "Did the results come in yet?" The nurse looks through the files and shake her head no. Ugh. How long does it take to get the results of a fucking MRI?! I walk back into moms hospital room and I held her hand. She is in deep sleep and she looks peaceful. Mom is the only person I care about in this world. I don't know what I'll do if I ever loose her.
I heard the door creak open and I turn around to see Jasper and Andrew standing in the doorway. I walk towards them and pull them into a hug. "It's okay Bax we are here. We won't leave you alone during this time," Jasper says as he pats my back. "Yeah, and your mom is a very strong women. She will pull through," Andrew says while hugging me tight. Hearing that my boys are here and having my back helps takes some tense off my back. Right now I need all the support I can get. I can't imagine loosing mom. She is the only person who ever loved me. She took me in when no one wanted me....I will forever be in her debt. But....how would you feel if you loose the only person who loves you?
"I don't want to loose my mom guys. My living situation is already shit. My grandfather is an asshole. The only person who ever loved me was mom. It was mom and I against the big bad world.......but now it might be me against the world," I say as tears start to travel down my face. Jasper quickly grabs some tissues and gives them to me. "Here" he says as I take a few tissues in my hand.
"Thanks" I say as I wipe the tears off my face. "Still no news about your mom?" Andrew asks in a concerning voice. I look at the ground and shake my head. I can't handle the wait. I need to know what's wrong with my mom! Suddenly my phone started to ring. I check to see who is calling me and I see that it's my grandfather. Maybe he's calling to see how mom is. I excuse myself from the room and enter the hallway to answer the call. As soon as I pick up the call, grandfather doesn't hesitate, "when will you and your mother be home?" When he that, it sounded like it was a bad word coming from his mouth. I don't have time to deal with his shit. I hang up the phone and make my way back to my moms rooms.
When I returned back to my moms hospital room, I saw that the doctor was there waiting for me. He gestured me to close the door behind me so he can finally tell me what's going on with mom. "Mr.Lopez. I have the results of the MRI and the test results we took from your mother." My heart started to beat fast as I feared of hearing bad news. "Her scans came out clean. There is nothing wrong with her brain, no tumors or a sign of stroke. Which is good." I sigh in relief. I can hear Jasper faintly say thank god and Andrew places his hand on my shoulder. But when I look at the doctor....he isn't smiling. "I wouldn't celebrate just yet Mr.Lopez. Even though your mothers scan came out clean...that doesn't mean her test results were."
There is that feeling again. The pit in my stomach that I start to feel when something bad is about to happen. "Your mothers tests results showed us that she has stage two breast cancer." The doctor started to explain what was going to happen next with mom and what the next steps are. But I couldn't hear a word he was saying. I saw his mouth move, but I heard no words. I tuned everything out. All that was playing in my mind was, "she has stage two breast cancer." Mom is diagnosed with cancer....I have no idea what I'll do. I can't loose my mom. I don't know what I'll do if I loose her....during that exact moment I started to break down. I didn't care if doctor was watching me, if I was embarrassing myself in front of everyone....I am scared that I'll loose my mother.
"Is there anything we can do?!" I ask franticly. The doctor looks through his notes for a second before he looks up and says, "since it's the second stage and still relatively early, we can start her off with chemotherapy to reduce the cancer cell. Then we can see what we will do from there" the doctor says before he leaves the room. When did this all happen? Just a few hours ago she was laughing and smiling and now she has stage two breast cancer?? As I thought things couldn't get worse, my phone started to ring and lord behold, it's none other then my grandfather.
Fucking perfect.