Taehyung pulled up the pajama pants of jungmin to his tiny waist. The small boy rubbed his eyes while yawning cutely and waiting for his mama to dress him into his night suit.
Taehyung chuckled at his son and picked him up in his arms, gently laying him on the bed. Jungmin's amber eyes gazed at taehyung who tucked him into the silken duvet and snuggled closer to his tiny body, giving him the motherly warmth.
"My baby is so sleepy...hm?" Taehyung pecked his both cheeks and pulled him closer to his chest.
Jungmin beamed contently and wrapped his arms to his mama's chest which couldn't reach fully as it was too small.
Taehyung cooed when jungmin battled his lashes and gazed at him adorably.
"Mama?" Taehyung hummed, fingers combing his son's hair.
"Will chim uncle come tomorrow?" Jungmin's eyes were glinting with hope.
"No, tomorrow i'll be there to drop you to your school. So no, your chim uncle is not coming" Taehyung flicked his cute nose lightly.
This morning when he had gone to meet jungkook with yoongi, jimin was the one who dropped jungmin to his preschool. The little boy is querying about the same.
A instant pout formed in jungmin's lips as he asked, "but won'th you be busy?"
Taehyung frowned in confusion, "no, it was just this one time baby"
His son's sad face was suspicious, "Why do i feel like you want your chim uncle than me?"
Jungmin immediately shook his head in no, his innocent eyes unable to hold his lie.
Taehyung playfully narrowed his eyes, "hm...let me guess what chim uncle bribed my son with..."
"No...nothing" Jungmin's doe eyes sparkled to believe him.
"Chocolates...no no wait..." Taehyung's lips curl at one side as he smirks teasingly, "ice-creams"
Jungmim whines as if he lost a game. "No! I just mish chim uncle"
"Haw! look at you lying... C'mere you little" Taehyung digged his hands hands down, attacking tickles on jungmin's stomach.
The boy's giggles resonate the room, filling the air pleasantly. The laughter weapon slowly ceased as taehyung pulled his boy and cocooned him in his warm cuddle.
"My baby" He kissed his son and let out a soft breath. Jungmin laid on his chest, bathing in his warmth.
Taehyung stroked his hair, massaging his scalp lovingly. Before jungmin slips into slumber, he calls, "baby?"
Jungmin raises his head, his chin resting on top of his mama's chest. The action so endearing that taehyung giggled.
"Will my baby be happy if someone stays our home?" The question was said out a bit nervously.
"Huh?" Jungmin blinks, quite twisted to understand.
Taehyung feels his smooth hair and explains, "Baby.... A person i know wants to live with us? Will my baby be okay if he does?"
The little boy thought deeply, eyes rolling up as he stressed his brain to consider about it.
"Will he take my toys?" He queried, sulking a bit.
Taehyung chuckled at his innocent question, "No... He won't"
Jungmin sits up, "Is he like Sungho sir?"
Another curious question. The little one was interrogating as he doesn't want any strict rude person to stay his home such as his teacher, Mr. Sungho.
Taehyung laughed, "no baby...nothing like sugho...it's---"
He paused and held the boy's shoulders, "what do you call him... Ah, yes...bunny uncle. It's your bunny uncle"
The boy's eyes widened comically, a big grin of surprise forming in his soft lips as he squeals, "bunny uncle!?"
"Yes" Taehyung smiled, satisfied to see his reaction.
"Really? Really?" Jungmin was now jumping on the mattress, bursting some laughter from taehyung.
"Yes...so can he stay here with us?" He chuckled. Despite knowing the answer, he wanted to hear it from his son.
"Yesh yesh... Mama! I love bunny uncle" Jungmin crashed for a tight hug, "he's so nice"
Taehyung grinned, making his son to lay down beside. "Yes, he's nice"
"You have to be a good boy, okay? No causing trouble around him" Taehyung instructed, though he knows jungmin does nothing related to trouble as he's a well mannered kid.
"Yes~" The response came out in a sing song.
"When will he come?" The boy impatiently asks.
Taehyung presses his lips, "i will tell when he does, okay?"
"Okay" The boy giggled, quite excited.
"Now come on, sleep" Taehyung swiped his hand over his face, making the boy to close his eyes. He softly patted on his son's head as he slowly started to sleep.
Thoughts invaded his mind instead of sleep. Few days later, things will change in his life. Things which he didn't even imagine in the wildest dreams.
He wasn't even sure if he was ready for it. For accepting the imminent changes--accepting jungkook. This wasn't what he wanted, for sure.
If things were different, if jungkook hadn't tried to commit suicide. If he was living among them, like normal. Then at present, they would be divorced. Jungmin would've been living separately with each of them on a frequent basis. And maybe, maybe they would be in good terms too. But never would they have the remnants of their broken relationship.
Taehyung would never accept in having any kind of relationship with jungkook. Cut to short, he would never forgive him.
It would have been easy to move on if the course of life would have gone that way. Not like this. Stuck. In a love. Which feels toxic.
Stuck. That's the right word. He's still deeply in love with that man but also wants to get out of it. Wishes to get out of it. For years now. But the events of his life never helped.
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Ten o' clock morphs into eleven and then twelve. Time trickles by yet the sleep didn't visit jungkook as he stare at the ceiling, laying on the bed with arms wrapped under his head.
He earlier got a call from hoseok as the older was worried for him and the small doubt that left jungkook's mind for not believing the one's who claimed themselves as his friends was wiped out by the doctor as he informed that the others are well known to him and would never lie something for any benefit.
Jungkook queried about the person he's going to live with to hoseok who informed him the same that taehyung lives with his four-year-old son in his house, alone. Just like said by taehyung.
He had to specifically ask about taehyung's partner for which hoseok said he's unknown to that information. He felt weird at his stuttering but chose to shrug it off.
Jungkook already packed his belongings and is quite nervous---because of course he's gonna live with a stranger, well of course for him because he doesn't remember any bit of his past.
Yet a small part of his heart has the excitement knowing that he's gonna stay with the little bunny boy he met. That kid holds his heart.
Never would've he agreed on living with anyone even if it's his friend as he doesn't want to be a burden to anyone but the way taehyung requested, the way he said he needs him--didn't felt like a burden.
It was so sincere that he couldn't deny him, also something within him didn't wanted to see disappointment in that beautiful face. Don't ask him what? He doesn't know. And he doesn't want to know. It's totally wrong to crush on someone's husband.
But if you look at that, everyone has a crush. Is any people exist who doesn't have crush on a goddamn celebrity? It's because it's a normal attraction towards beauty. And Kim Taehyung is incredibly beautiful. It's simply a harmless attraction and there's no big deal if he keeps it to himself.
A chuckle left his mouth, look at you all defending. Shameless being!
He looks back at the white of the ceiling, face turning stoic. All these days, he only had one thing to stress himself about and that was how to find his family but now he desperately wants to know the reason why he didn't share his personal details to his own friends.
If at all he did that then he would've been with his family right now.
Or not.
What if he doesn't have a family at all? What if his family abandoned him and that's why they didn't find him till now because maybe they're not even searching for him.
These dreadful thoughts were making him feel the tiredness in his chest as he breathed slowly. His mouth went dry all of a sudden and breathes became short and paining.
Jungkook closed his eyes and remembered the relaxation lessons he learned from the CBT therapy sessions.
Trying to focus on his breathing, he took a long breath in and very slowly breathed out. He did it a quite few times, blanking his mind and concentrating only on his breathing, it felt quite relaxing.
He rolled over to the side of his bed and reached out for the small bottle of sleeping pills kept in the nightstand which was prescribed by the doctor.
Insomnia was something that would haunt him every night as it was a ritual to be followed for a panic attack suffering patient.
He gulped down a pill and dropped himself down on the mattress with his eyes closed and a sigh leaving his lips.
Soon the stressful thoughts floated into his mind which made him curse at himself. He squirmed over his bed in irritation as he kept on chanting in his mind---
Nothing...it's nothing... Just relax.
Think of something positive... Something good and beautiful--
His mind paused as his closed eyes could suddenly see the clear image of a beautiful smile. Those pretty hazel eyes.
Taehyung.
His velvety voice ringing in his ears, calling his name. And just like that a soft breath of content leaves his mouth, taking away all his discomforts.
"Taehyung" He whispered, a dreamy smile playing in his lips. He repeats again, "taehyung"
It felt nice to say it again and again, it indeed felt good hearing from his voice. Like he will never be tired of saying that name.
Something was so special and familiar about taehyung. So familiar.
Jungkook smiled, shrugging the unknown feeling from his heart. He started thinking about the awaiting day from where a new chapter will start in his life.
And the good part was, he won't be alone from now on.
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You will soon find a transition of my writing style as i'm deciding to keep my old writing with just proof reading, it's kind of okay from now on. It will be a little awkward for y'all tho 💀