TRIGGER WARNING: Eating Disorder, self harm, suicidal thoughts/tendencies Above Average. I have always been above average. In school, in sports, in clubs and in weight. The doctors always said "for how much exercise you do, you shouldn't weigh that much." So I took initiative. Started skipping meals. Coming up with excuses to avoid snacks. Perfecting the art of pretending to eat. Cut the food into small pieces, maybe hide it in the salad that's drenched in dressing. Too many calories, too many pounds, too many inches added to my already chubby waist. No one will ever be able to help me see myself differently. Or so I thought.