I learned five things the year I turned seventeen: # 1. How to talk even if no one was paying attention to me # 2. To stop wearing converse, because they squeaked every time I took a step # 3. That everything I had ever known was a complete and total illusion #4. That If there was no one on this earth who loved him, that meant I must have been dead or that I never existed at all and #5. That my life would never be same again