Highschool Love

06

I pushed Jungwon away and slammed the door.

what was he thinking? was he drunk? because I know he wouldn't do that.

3 new messages from Jungwon

Jungwon
babyyyy

Jungwon
why did you slam the door?

Jungwon
do you not love me anymore?

Joona
Jungwon stop.

Joona
your drunk.

Jungwon
no I'm not baby open the door!

Jungwon
fine don't talk to me! we're breaking up!
Seen

I went upstairs as I laughed by his attitude when his drunk.

I opened the air conditioner and went to my bed to sleep.

The next day.

I woke up and took a bath the teacher informed us that we can wear anything.

So I wore this

and syled my hair like this.

I went out and waited for the bus.

the bus arrived, I went in.

I saw Jungwon sitting there.

I didn't look at him, I just went to a seat.

I saw a message, I looked at my phone to see.

3 messages from Jungwon

Jungwon
hey?

Jungwon
is there a problem?

Jungwon
are you avoiding me?
seen

I just opened spotify and listened to "To My Youth"

"To my youth" lyrics

나는 한때 내가 이 세상에 사라지길 바랬어
온 세상이 너무나 캄캄해 매일 밤을 울던 날
차라리 내가 사라지면 마음이 편할까
모두가 날 바라보는 시선이 너무나 두려워
아름답게 아름답던 그 시절을 난 아파서
사랑받을 수 없었던 내가 너무나 싫어서
엄마는 아빠는 다 나만 바라보는데
내 마음은 그런 게 아닌데 자꾸만 멀어만 가
어떡해 어떡해 어떡해 어떡해
시간이 약이라는 말이 내게 정말 맞더라고
하루가 지나면 지날수록 더 나아지더라고
근데 가끔은 너무 행복하면 또 아파올까 봐
내가 가진 이 행복들을 누군가가 가져갈까 봐
아름다운 아름답던 그 기억이 난 아파서
아픈 만큼 아파해도 사라지지를 않아서
친구들은 사람들은 다 나만 바라보는데
내 모습은 그런 게 아닌데 자꾸만 멀어만 가
그래도 난 어쩌면 내가
이 세상에 밝은 빛이라도 될까 봐
어쩌면 그 모든 아픔을 내딛고서라도 짧게 빛을 내볼까 봐
포기할 수가 없어
하루도 맘 편히 잠들 수가 없던 내가
이렇게라도 일어서 보려고 하면 내가
날 찾아줄까 봐
아아아아아아아 아아아아아아아
아아아아아아아 아아아아아아아
얼마나 얼마나 아팠을까
얼마나 얼마나 아팠을까
얼마나 얼마나 얼마나 바랬을까

I listened as I hummed.

I just realized we arrived.

I went out the bus with Jungwon following me.

"Joo-"

I immediately ran away.

"Joo!"

I went to my locker to put my things and quickly went inside the classroom.

I saw Mia but I ignored her.

"Joona!" she said while waving her hand, I ignored her and went to sit at the back since no one sits at the back.

she looked at me confused.

"Joona?" I ignored her again.

"Is there a problem?" she looked at me while asking.

I ignored her.

"Joo-" the teacher talked.

"Okay let's start our lesson for today" she said as she looked at Mia.

"Mia you said something?" she said as she looked at Mia raising one eyebrow

"Nothing Ma'am"

"Okay let's start. blah blah blah"

"I want this to end ugh." I whispered to myself.

After the lesson I went out the classroom and went to my locker.

I got surprised because Jungwon suddenly pulled me to the restroom and pinned me to the wall.

"Don't you ignore me. you wouldn't like what I would do."

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING! SORRY FOR SLOW UPDATES I HAVE A FEVER RIGHT NOW.