In love with my bully? 💣 🔞 | Harry Styles AU | ON HOLD

chapter 6 (part 1)

Sarah's POV:

I couldn't believe it, Harry cut my hair?!
I couldn't contain the tears from falling out.

I was shocked...
And it hurts... emotionally...

I know it was just a strand of hair, and it feels like I'm making a big deal of this, but it still hurts.

Why was he doing this to me??

Can you imagine someone hating you so much they feel the need to remind you of  how worthless and useless you are every time they see you?

Making sure to remind you that no one cared about you and that you were just a joke?
For everyone.

That absolutely no one cared or liked you in your life?

And just have people constantly making fun of you laugh at you and make sure that you feel miserable?

Every single minute of the day?

Do you know how it feels?!

Even when you never did anyone any wrong? When all you've been in your life is a good person.

Nice to everyone. Unable to see anyone in pain.

Not even a fly.

That you're ready to help anyone even when you know they're just using you just to please them?

But you the nice girl, always end up having to face the worst life!
Life is unfair.

And no one can tell me it isn't.

Things were rough for me they always have been. And I just learned to deal with it.

I learned to take the bullying, look pass it.

Focus on better things.
Not that there were many.

Reason with myself, tell myself it was going to be ok one day...

I cry myself to sleep at night, just wishing it would stop.

Maybe tomorrow it will cease. Then again, maybe not.

They all push me around and poke me, call me hurtful names.
To me it was torture.
For them it's all just fun and games.

Their heart made of ice.

Mine was once a rainbow but they just moulded it to darkest black.

I hate him, I hate everyone.

There is no one I can trust.

You've turned my soul into dust.

If only there was a door I could open, a simple path I could take.
I don't want to be stuck in here forever, in this endless spiral of dread.