I really can say, "I'm whole,"
Even though
I leave pieces of myself
Everywhere I goI live on in the people
The places, the spaces that
I've loved and lost
Even those I can't take looking atLeft me with confusion
I've been grieving all year
Left me with scars and bruises
and filled me with fearMy pen is shaking, and my voice is breaking
My head hurts, eyes swollen
I've been crying all month
I just want to be heard.. for onceI need something raw and
I need something steel
I need them to understand
They can't know how I feelThere is no starting over
and I'm trying to heal
It's so hard to let go
You're so damn confusedYou're not gone forever
It almost doesn't seem real
Even though, you may not know,
There's always a piece of me with youYou recognized the blessing I was
You just don't have the capacity to love