Secretly a virgin

PART TWO

   It was early in the morning when you woke up to Ellie still asleep and Joel nowhere to be found. You figured he was out keeping himself busy close by, and so you decided to make something for everyone to eat using what you had. Your mind never stopped thinking about what you had just done the day before, you wondered how he was going to act with you in front of Ellie.
  Cutting up some vegetables that you grew you heard the door open and knew it was him. Joel walked inside to find you by the kitchen area before looking up to his left and seeing Ellie was still asleep.
"Hi" you spoke softly as his eyes found you again. He gave you a nod as he walked towards you while you struggled to think of something else to say.
"So um, I'm making-"
"You still in pain?" He suddenly asked in a rough low voice. Of course you were, not even twenty four hours earlier Joel had just rammed himself in you not knowing you had never been touched. You shook your head before you could think of a word to say to his unexpected question.
"N-not really, maybe a little but I'm fine" you assured him as once again you began to think of how good it ended. It was worth it to be a little sore. Now if it was ever going to happen again, you weren't sure, but you couldn't help but ask how else you could make yourself feel that wonderful high he made you feel.
"Joel um...can I ask you something?"
"Mhm" he stood across from you.
"Well...um, you know that feeling I told you I felt when you made me-"
"Mhm" he cut you off being careful Ellie wasn't eavesdropping yet eager to hear your question.
"How can I feel that same feeling again...I mean...I know we probably won't um do that again but I want to feel it...how can I in another way?" You question was hesitant, you almost felt stupid.
He took a deep breath trying to find a way to not react in that moment, an image of you laying in bed with your hand between your legs making yourself cum now in his head and you didn't even do it purposely.
"Joel?" Your voice snapping him out of it making him look back at you.
"You've never-"
"No. I mean we had health class and people spoke but I never..." you tried to explain when Ellie's voice caught you both off guard.
"Hey are you making those vegetable fritters again?" Ellie asked with excitement running up beside you as Joel silently walked out the back door.
"Uh, yes. Hey why don't you finish cutting these for me so I can go collect the rest of the vegetables." Ellie nodded and took over with the knife in her hand as you walked out.

     Joel stood in the back staring off into the woods trying to control himself with the thoughts you just put into his head. He knew last night shouldn't have happened, especially not the way it did but how the hell was he suppose to ignore this urge for you. His thoughts being interrupted by the sound of the door slamming shut as you walked out.
"Sorry, I just needed to get a few things" you uttered low as he looked over his shoulder at you.
"What the hell are you trynna to do to me?"
"What?" You asked confused as he turned looking behind you making sure Ellie wasn't following you out. Quickly he stepped closer to you, with a very similar look he had the night before.
"I'm trying my best here to not-" he cut himself off, his eyes drifting down to your lips.
"To not what?" You asked confused making him look back up, but he didn't speak.
"Look Joel, if you don't wanna tell me what I asked-" he suddenly grabbed your face and kissed you making you stumble back against the wall. Still holding your face in his hands he pulled his lips away, his eyes darkened.
"No I don't wanna tell you,"
"I wanna show you" his words sending a tingle to the pit of your stomach.
"You wanna feel what you felt last night, darlin'?" His eyebrows furrowed as his hands dropped to your waist holding you close.
"Y-yes"
"I'll make you feel it again and I promise it ain't gonna hurt this time"
"Joel...I...I don't care if it hurts...I just want-"
"Hey, I'm done cutting the vegetables!" Ellie called out from inside making Joel quickly turn away from you thinking she came out. You took a deep breath grabbing the vegetables and walked back inside not saying another word.

   That evening the three of you sat at the table together having dinner as you usually did. Ellie raised her brows looking back and fourth between you and Joel as you both didn't lift your heads up from your plates.
"So uh, I was gonna ask if I can try fishing later?"
"By yourself?" Joel quickly looked up directly at her.
"Uh yeah, I mean its right there. We have most of the area closed off. Why not?"
"I don't know, Ellie. I doubt you'd be able to catch more than I can anyway" he teased her making you look up.
"Nuh uh, wanna bet?"
Joel knew exactly what he was doing, Ellie out of the cabin leaving the place to just you and him...exactly what he had in mind.
"It's on" Joel chuckled making you smile, it was rare to see Joel in a light hearted mood.
   After dinner you watched as Ellie excitedly packed her stuff to fish with Joel making sure she had all she needed.
"You sure she's gonna be safe there?" You asked making him look up at you.
"I wouldn't let her go if I thought she wasn't" he responded as you stood by the counter.
"Ok" you whispered as they finished up packing before Joel walked her to the lake leaving you alone in the cabin.
   Being alone with Joel in doors bought an excitement to you that you never felt before. You knew what this meant with Ellie not there and had an idea. Looking at a tiny dirty mirror that was hung on the wall you began to undress yourself. It was strange, although this man had already taken your virginity, he still had yet to see your naked body. 
     With only a sweater on you watched out the window until you saw him finally approaching. Quickly throwing the sweater aside you positioned yourself by the counter that he would see the second he walked in. Your heart racing hearing the door knob turn until it finally opened, your naked body catching Joel completely off guard. Clenching his jaw he shut the door behind him as you stood awkwardly not sure what to do with your hands. Joel could tell you were nervous, your innocence arousing him a bit more. His eyes slowly finding the sight of your breasts, he began to make his way towards you without taking his eyes off them. Neither of you said a word but he could see you began to breathe heavier as your chest rose and fell in a fast pace. He stopped before you, slowly looking back up into your eyes.
"Now I'm trying my very best to not sit you up on that counter and take you just like I did last night but you're making it too damn hard for me to not-"his eyes wandered to your naked body again.
"To not just do what I wanna do without thinking. But I promised you I wasn't gonna hurt you, and I keep my promises, darlin". He looked back up at you.
"Joel-" you whispered.
"Mm mm" he shook his head,
"I don't wanna hear a word...not unless you're cumming for me. I just want you to lay yourself on my bed" he proceeded to take off his jacket as you looked at where he slept. He watched as you nervously lay back on his pillow as he slowly lay beside you turned towards you. Silently his eyes drifted down to your body as you nervously took a deep breath. His large rough hand gently brushing over your hard nipples, he wondered if any other man had the pleasure in ever seeing them before let alone touching them. Slowly he moved down to your bare thigh as you looked up at him curiously.
"What are you gonna do?"
His eyes found yours as his fingers creeped to your inner thigh. He didn't respond, gently pulling your thigh towards him, making your legs spread. He instantly felt you leg jerk back a bit, he knew you were nervous. You didn't even realize you had done it.
"C'mere" he whispered pulling your leg completely against him before feeling his fingers trace your slit delicately.
"I'm gonna make sure you're ready for me" his lips brushing against your ear sending goosebumps through your body just as you felt his finger on your very clit. Slowly he began to move his finger in a circular motion building up the pleasure little by little. Moaning softly he watched as your body began to squirm with excitement before sliding his finger down and feeling how wet you already were.
"Oh there it is" he whispered just as he slid his large finger in. You softly gasped as he leaned his lips against your face, you could feel his hard on against your thigh. Your fingers digging into the covers beneath you, just like that he was slowly finger fucking you...
So many thoughts running through your mind had all just melted away with what he was doing to you, you hadn't even noticed just how focused he was on watching you as he continued until he spoke.
"That feel good,baby?" You looked up barely able to speak. The sound of your wet pussy speaking for itself, arousing him more.
"Joel.." you choked out jerking your hips upward, he knew what was about to happen.
"Joel...I think...I think it's happening again" you rolled your eyes back as he moved his hand faster pressing his lips together. You grabbed onto his shirt, nails digging in, he watched as your back arched and lips opened but no sound came out before you cried out like I never before.
"Oh my god-" you whimpered, your body still shaking against his as his hand slowly stopped. Your legs moving uncontrollably...you both locked eyes.
"Joel-"
"Shh, just feel it, baby" you panted looking up at him and pulled him in for a passionate kiss.
   Joel kissed you before suddenly whispering something you didn't expect.
"Get on me, baby"  he began to undress himself quickly before you could say a word.  For some reason your heart sunk at the thought, you didn't know how to ride a man much less a man of his size.
"Joel, I can't-" you whispered looking down at how hard he was.
"C'mere" he pulled your arms landing your hands on his bare shoulders.
"Joel wait, I don't know how-"
"Look at me" he pulled your leg over him as you struggled to keep your balance holding onto him, you froze feeling his cock begin to enter you.
"Look at me, baby. You don't have to do a damn thing" he held onto your hips as he slowly pushed upward while pulling you down on him. This angle only made him feel bigger, still sore from the day before the you winced making Joel instantly stop.
"You alright?"
"Yes" you whispered looking down at him. It seemed no matter how aroused you were, it was still bound to hurt, being sore also didn't help. 
"It's ok just..just do it" he quickly shook his head at your suggestion.
"Don't tell me that, I told you I wasn't gonna hurt you" you felt his hands squeeze your hips, you knew he was doing his best to control his urge to thrust.
"Joel" you insisted with a look while leaning on his chest. Without saying a word, with full force he thrusted upward making you loudly gasp. The fullness you felt you were almost afraid to move, he remained still beneath you allowing you to adjust to his size.
"Dammit" he whispered breathlessly seeing the discomfort on your face. His hand gently brushing up your body, caressing your face. Slowly he pulled your body down completely against his, kissing you he attempted to distract you from the pain. You could feel his heart racing against your chest as you felt him very slowly pull out half way before sliding back in. You whimpered against his lips as he moved as gentle as he could. He continued this way until he felt your body relax, moving at a steady pace until you pushed yourself up and began to move on your own. He watched as you balanced yourself on him and began to ride him with ease.
"That's it baby" His hands down on your thighs as he looked down and watched himself disappear in you. This position felt different but you liked it, he could feel how much you liked it. Closing your eyes you moaned throwing your head back when you felt his hands cup your breasts. He didn't say much but he didn't have to, the sound of his breathing and the way he touched you said enough. Moving in a faster pace he groaned appreciating the view of you on top, watching your hips grind sensually. His hands abruptly moved down your body as he unexpectedly  took back control. You felt his legs lift up beneath you while holding you in place. His hands grabbing your ass he thrusted upward as fast as he could, watching your expressions change from the overwhelming pleasure.
"Joel-"
"Go ahead, cum for me" he demanded out of breath. Both of your bodies sweaty, your hands sliding up his chest but he held, the pressure you felt was much bigger than you had felt before.
"Oh my God-" your nails digging into his chest, this time it felt much more intense, you didn't think you could handle it.
"Joel, I can't-"
"Yes you can" he panted. You squeezed your eyes shut, he felt you tighten up when ecstasy erupted throughout your body. Moaning almost in desperation, you held onto him barely able to keep yourself balanced. His mouth open watching your breasts bounce to his quick movements, he felt your cum drip down his balls. He watched you in awe, holding you steady on him as you felt complete loss of control.
"Oh yeah.." he whispered just as he felt himself about to explode. He quickly lifted you up and moaned in a way you had never heard before. Still on top of him, you leaned back, watching his hips jerk upward as his warm load spilled out of him.. Another harsh sound escaping his lips, yet you couldn't take your eyes off his cock. His hand wrapped around it, finishing himself off, he looked down and noticed how you watched. He could barely speak taking a minute to catch his breath.
"You ok?" He whispered making you look up at him.
"Are you?"
Joel chuckled as sweat dripped down the side of his head and nodded.
     The two of you were silent as you got dressed but you could feel Joel's eyes on you. He knew there must've been alot running through your mind but he wasn't a mind reader.
"You alright darlin'?"
"Can I ask you something?" You looked at him curiously.
"Of course"
"Does....does it feel the same way for you...the way it does for me....when you-" Joel chuckled making you cross your arms.
"Why are you laughing, it's an honest question"
Joel pulled your arms wrapping them around him, as he wrapped his around your waist.
"It can feel pretty intense...like just now" he responded calmly with a slight smirk.
"It almost made it hard for me to get you up on time" and you knew exactly what could happen if he didn't. He pulled you in for a kiss as you were still lost in thought.
"You know-" you gently pushed him back.
"It felt a lot...stronger today..while I was on top of you."
"I take it you like riding me then, huh," he whispered as he kissed the side of your face.
"I wanna try different things, Joel" your eyes rolled back feeling his scruff against your neck, his lips leaving a trail of soft kisses.
"We will" you smiled when the random thought of how much of an ass he used to be with you came to mind.
"Hey....why'd you always give me a hard time at first" your question making him stop as he took a deep breath. He took a step back as he looked down thinking of how to respond.
"I was trying to avoid this"
"Having sex with me?" You almost laughed making him look up, the seriousness in his eyes made you quickly stop.
"There's a lot you don't know about me and I just didn't think it was a good thing for you" he rubbed his facial hair as you raised a brow.
"So what's the difference between then and now?" Joel cleared his throat knowing a moment of weakness from him was what made the difference.
"Seeing you wearing my shirt that night" his words making you blush.
"Do you regret it?" You asked hesitantly.
"Of course not" he responded quicker than you expected.
"I only regret not knowing you were a virgin, for your sake." You didn't exactly know how to respond and so you looked down with slight embarrassment.
"Hey" he placed his hand on your waist pulling you in.
"I'm glad it was me" he whispered before kissing you gently and making his way to the door.
"We'll be back in a few" he left you standing there silently, you couldn't help but wonder what this meant although you promised yourself you wouldn't think too much into it.
   As the weeks went by Joel and you kept what was going on a secret, using any time you could sneak away to have a quickie. Ellie wasn't stupid, she noticed Joel's attitude towards you change but she preferred it that way, she hated the tension between you two. As Joel promised he taught you different things and your confidence grew.