DeNells Dairies

loving you.

I asked myself,
Which is better?
Change my self for her
Or be myself for me?

I used to put her first
And forgot about
What's best for me.

I realized I was living
But not for myself.
Hard it is to call that a life.
Some say it's romantic,
But I would rather live through that
Than have her out of my life.

I would always wonder
What she would say
If she knew what i was feeling inside.

Would she feel guilty about hurting me?
Would she say "it's all your fault"?
Would she abandon me
To spare me from future wounds?

But whatever she would say,
I didn't really wanna know
Because i knew.
I knew it would end.

All the suffering,
all the torment but also
All the laughs .

Love is all that I had for her.
It would be gone
So would she,
And i can't accept.
I just can't,
So if i have to
I'll live in torment just to see her again.

I would endure the pain of hell.
Out on the verge of death if it means
Loving you.

~BeNelly~