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Hi everyone, it's me again. I know that it's been quite a while since I've really done anything besides support other authors on Wattpad and all that, but I guess I gotta keep this as frank as possible, college is kicking my ass. I feel like shit whenever I go to school, putting up this mask that has a smile before going back home and using video games as my preferred hideaway/outlet to keep myself from having any sort of negative thoughts.
But lately I guess I'm starting to reach a point where all of it starts to become volatile, where I feel like I might lash out at someone and regret it later on and face the consequences afterwards. I am terrified for that, and it's one of the reasons why I barely touched the "Write" function of Wattpad, I had no motivation. But for a time there was some motivation, through hand-writing things, and soon enough, I did have some drafts of books, but that still doesn't change the fact that I am still feeling scared out of my mind.
Nevertheless, I want to say Belated Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to everyone. Being on Wattpad is such a journey, even if the majority of it has been mostly reading works of other people nowadays, and I know that I keep saying that I'll write soon and not follow up on it, but I really want to get back into it, even if I may stumble back out of it due to fear, stress, anxiety/worry, or all of these negative emotions at once.
In any case, I hope to at least be able to get back into writing, but if I do end up falling out of it once more, I hope that you guys can understand...Anyways, thank you guys, and I will see you soon.