gotthatbrainrot

I miss heathens

Honestly think toddlers have the right idea on how to go through life:
          -Throw a tantrum every time you don't get your way
          -Bite those who annoy you
          -Cry
          -Nap all the time
          -Eat all the time
          -Cry some more
          -Bite some more
          -Say nonsensical stuff and then get mad when nobody has a clue what you are saying
          
          Like, they have this life stuff FIGURED OUT

SCREAMING BRO OMG
          
          sorry i have a lot of emotions right now and I just saw the haikyuu movie and hoalshgakzvdkudlshdm!!!   
          
          My love for this series knows no bounds
          
          I am super unwell over this and needed to go feral for a moment, ignore me

Happy anniversary of your brutal murder, Jason!
          
          (He actually makes me cry with how tragic his character is)

FUALYSKWHEODHJ
          
          HEEEELLLLLPPPP!!!
          
          My older sister found and FOLLOWED my fan tiktok account where I post about fics, shipping, headcannons, etc 
          
          It has my ao3 attached to it to omg I am screaming 

I NEED someone to write a fic about the original idea for the time travel proof in Endgame.
          
          Clint was supposed to go back in time and bring Pietro with him as proof that it works and I NEED someone to write this. The angst of it, of Pietro coming back and realizing Wanda is gone, of learning what she had gone through, fighting for her and all the other dusted to come back.
          
          And then a climatic and emotional reunion on the battle field like just imagine Wanda is doing the whole “you took everything from me” speech to Thanos and Pietro body slams him out of the way and looks at her and goes “not everything” 
          
          And then they proceed to destroy Thanos.
          
          (Also Nat never dies bc Steve sacrifices Captain America (not himself, the role of captain and the serum) and so she is there too)
          
          ((And ofc Pietro makes fun of his sister for dating Vision like come on it happens))

Here for the quarterly update on life and why I have not been updating:
          
          -I am taking night classes twice a week (trying to become a social worker)
          -I am now working two jobs (one full time and one part time) plus occasional babysitting bc I am tryna move out
          -I have lost a lot of inspiration and creative flow for stories which is frustrating bc I actually do have the ideas and the motivation I just lack the time and the drive and then that upsets me that I am not writing which further takes away the drive and it is an endless cycle
          
          I really really wanna write more, especially since I am finding balance between all my fandoms (getting back to my roots of Marvel and DC) and it is super sad to me that I haven’t produced anything in months
          
          Here’s hoping I can find a way to squeeze something out soon!!

Y’all I just noticed that Family Business has over 300k reads????
          
          Thank you so much for reading my stories, it truly means a lot to me that people read the stuff I put out there!

Y'ALL!!!!
          
          I finally got the MRI for my knee the other day!!!
          
          Now I just have to wait for the results but I am so hyped to finally find out what is going on with it!!!
          
          :D

I think one of the most annoying (at times) things about having a hyper fixation is seeing it everywhere and in everything. I cannot consume other media without the little goblin in my brain pointing out comparisons to it, cannot see character designs without matching them to other series, etc.
          
          I don’t know if this made sense but oh well.
          
          (This was brought on by the fact that I am currently watching Given and cannot stop seeing Kageyama and Hinata as Uenoyama and Mafuyu ((obvious)) BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY I CANNOT STOP SEEING HIIRAGI AS KENMA AND SHIZUSUMI AS AKAASHI!!! It is merely character design too cuz their personalities are wildly different!!! ((Well I mean Uenoyama and Kageyama are both awkward and angry as heck and now that I think about it Shizusumi and Akaashi both kind of have that quiet aloof vibe to them))
          
          I would just like to be able to watch/read something new without somehow relating it to Haikyuu/plotting an au of it in my head. 
          
          It is a blessing and a curse, unfortunately. 
          
          ((And I don’t even particularly like kageyama x hinata, I like them much better as teasing d-bag besties and hinata as kenma’s sugar baby (which basically canon post time skip)
          
          Sorry, I shall go back to sobbing over Mafuyu’s song now.