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i understand that i haven’t been very active lately, and i’m so so sorry. there’s been a lot of stuff happening lately that has just been so draining that i don’t even have the energy to open the app most of the time. it all feels a little daunting. 
          
          one of the main bright sides is that the guy i’m literally obsessed with is like my life raft right now. he’s so nice and affectionate even though he doesn’t have to be. he’s giving me a reason to want to keep going. it’s insane bro. i just never thought this would?? happen to me??? LMAO
          
          anyways, sorry for the mini dump. just wanted to apologize to everyone for the inactive-ness </3

so uh
          
          i have an absolutely MASSIVE crush on this guy, right? i was crying and we were texting & i kind of sort of mentioned in a discreet way that i was bawling my eyeballs out & this man literally coaxed me into venting to him. AT MIDNIGHT. so i vent, and he like comforts me (which i am NOT used to so i was freaking out & texting my bsf like HOLY HELL WHAT DO I DO) & says that if i ever need to talk to js tell him & he’ll b there for me. he then tried to distract me by making jokes, which was soo obvious but so adorable??? and then i mentioned in an offhand sort of way that i was still sobbing my eyes out & he’s all “ur still crying?” COMPLETELY IGNORES THE REST OF THE MESSAGE JS MAKES SURE IM OKAY AND I CANNOT DO THIS IM NOT USED TO AFFECTION SEND HELP IMMEDIATELY
          
          
          (do not actually send help.)

sometimes ‘babygirl’ is a 102 year old fictional vampire who jokes about his deep trauma as a coping mechanism and drinks blood out of those little pouches (the ones doctors use when you donate blood) with a straw like a child with a juice box.
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          i’m never shutting up about him. he’s my most glorious creation

the feminine urge to give my beloved vamp boy burn scars from silver
          
          i js love giving my ocs trauma AHAHAHA

the way that i wonder what kind of kvnks my ocs would have is insane.
          
          
          
          
          
          especially since i already know all of their turn ons/offs PLUS kvnks i just don’t include that in forms because hardly anyone even cares abt that stuff & it’s not exactly meant for minors’ eyes
          
          
          
          but whatever
          
          
          also if anyone wants me to add that info hmu LMAO. also it would be optional ofc. u don’t have to include any of that unless u want to

i cant accurately depict how much of a slvt cas really is
          
          some silly (yet hot) little taiwanese vampire boy who’s never actually been in love in all 102 years he’s been on this godforsaken planet who will 100% screw around just for kicks and say ‘no strings attached’ even tho he will be the one to attach ALL of the strings bc he gets attached easily and would never admit it bc he’s tough dude #1 when he actually isn’t he just acts like it because strength makes up for height ig
          
          he’s just a whvre idk

so basically someone needs to yell at me to get my shit done bc i have so many unfinished forms & i still have to finish BOTH of my roleplays………
          
          average rila things
          
          *sob*

the temporary roleplay page for ‘the facility’ has been published!
          
          there are a /lot/ of locations, but it’s literally a huge ass building so bare with me

for some reason i either get my forms done before everyone else or after. there is no in between
          
          anyways make sure to get ur forms done for ‘the facility’! roleplay pages are coming soon ;)

honestly i’m thinking about making cas like 102 or smthn so he lived through the taiwan strait crisis and fled taiwan when the islands were being bombed
          
          idk