Taymor
I'm sitting here crying listening to Jhené and eating ice cream. I shouldn't be like this! I fucked Nau'Jour I got my get back why am I still so sad?
He thinks I like Nau'Jour and I don't! I love Joseph I do but I really think we need a break just to cool down but he not having it
"Cause when I get mad I get big mad, should've never did that!" I yelled
Jahseh and nick went out to get food I don't even wanna get out the bed. Trip canceled at this point
"TRIGGERED! WHEN I HEAR YO NAME!"
"Oh here we go" Jahseh says walking in some shit I never seen before
"Jah what is that?"
"Just eat the shit! You hungry ain't you?" Nick spats
"If this shit is nasty I'm throwing it at yo face nick!"
They laugh like some is funny. I threw my half eaten ice cream on the nightstand next to me before getting a fork from Jahseh
"I got cussed out today" he mumbled
"What you do to my brother" I laughed
"He still don't like the fact I took 3 thousand dollars to come here. I told him I don't give a fuck what he like."
"This nigga lying" nick said
"Right cause he a suck up when it comes to Kentrell ass" I said dapping nick up
"Okay! I might not have said it like that but that's what I was aiming for!" He spats
"All I know is I'm getting some mean dick wen we get back home. Sheyya finna put me in a wheelchair" nick chuckled
"Aight when yo ass screaming don't be saying you sorry and shit, talking bout ima suck up"
"Jah you are a suck up! Trell can tell you to mop the ocean and what you gone do?"
"Mop that damn ocean dry!" I said laughing loud as hell
"But anyways I think we done for real" I said poking at my food
"Whatttt? I'll believe it when I see it" Jah said
"No for real! He don't even wanna talk to me because he feel like I want Nau'Jour because I told him not to kill him"
"Nah kill his ass! You tripping I'm finna call Kentrell right now!" Jahseh said
"Yea! He getting put onna T" nicked pipes up
I rolled my eyes still poking at my food, all of the sudden I'm not hungry anymore. I hear Kentrell pick up almost making me puke
"Wassup Jahseh?"
He tilted his head shit I even tilted mines back, ain't no way he just called him Jahseh
"Wassup bro-"
"Jahseh"
"Kentrell"
"Stop playing wimme" he said calmly
"You the one playing calling me my name when you know You'n do that shit!" He spats into the phone making Kentrell groan
"My bad bae, wassup what you need?"
"You helping joe kill Nau'Jour right?"
"No" he said looking into the phone
That means yes he just ain't wanna say it because they be tapped into phones and shit
I finally ate the piece of whatever they brought me and it was kinda good, shit I might needa live in Hawaii
"And joe ain't gone kill em Tyquian is" he added making me laugh
They tryna put that nigga in jail, he been hiding for a while he know he next.
"What the fuck ever. My bestie over here moping eating ice cream and shit I don't like the way he acting" Jah said like I couldn't hear him
"Slime doing the same shit! Just without the ice cream. Haven't been eating at all"
My baby hasn't been eating? He's overthinking and hibernating
"Gimme the phone" I said going to the edge of my bed
Jahseh hands me the phone and Kentrell looked at me with a stank look
"Ya got my slime over here being hard on himself and talking down on himself he upset"
"I'm upset too! You my brother!" I spat
"Yea I beat his ass for ya now I'm on his side. Ya betta fix shit with em why ya out there hoeing. Ima fuck ya up"
"Yea Yea give the phone to joe" I rolled my eyes
When I seen joe pop up in the camera my heart started crying, he looked bad and it only been one day.
"Baby?" I said
I seen him slightly smile before taking a deep breath in
"Hey mamas" he said lowly
The more I looked at him the sadder I got. I mean I know he cheated first but I didn't even have to cheat back
"Baby I'm sorry!" I busted out crying
"I should of never talked to him and I never would of found out and I would have never fucked him and you wouldn't be sad and I wouldn't be sad and we woul-"
"Mamas ssshh, I'm the one who should be saying sorry. I made yhu feel like yhu had to compete for my attention and affection like yhu wasn't good enough" he said sitting up
"I'm the one who cheated and I understand if yhu want to leave me. I should of never talked to Ryan knowing I had yhu to go home too. None of this is your fault because if I didn't cheat it wouldn't of been nothing to find out"
My tears start to get overwhelming and my vision gets burly
"I think we do need a break tay not a long one but just one to breathe"
"What?! No! I changed my mind I don't want a break"
"We need one tho, I'm not really over the fact yhu let another nigga touch yhu"
"You let-"
"I know mamas I know. And that's why we need a break we keep doing this blame shit back and forth and it's never gone end"
"Joe we don't need no break!"
"I love yhu Tay and I'll talk to yhu when we get back home. For real this time if you call I'm not answering"
I pouted wiping my tears he can't do this to me! I can't do no break
"Tay?"
"I love you too joe."
