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DESCRIPTION: Months after Chaennie broke up, Rosé saw Jennie with somebody else.
Song: Somebody Else by The 1975
[Bold and italic words are lyrics. The lyrics aren't place in correct order]
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So I heard you found somebody else
And at first I thought it was a lie...
Rosé's POV
It's been months, I don't like counting actually. I've been busy with my paper so I can finally graduate and just by mention of numbers I can feel my guts wanting to come out of my mouth.
It's been months, and I haven't eaten a proper meal. My blood probably taste like coffee, chinese takeouts and fish and chips. Bet my organs will cause havoc if I intake one more milligram of caffeine.
It's been months since I talked to people. Lisa is a type of an evolved microorganism, so no, she isn't counted. Well, she at least made me stay sane. Keep me company in times that I can't seem to find my purpose in life. Ooh that's deep.
It's been months and I think I'm healed. My heart was broken but I think I am indeed healed. Because the moment I heard her name, my heart didn't clench or stopped beating. It just continue doing what it's supposed to do.
Beat for the purpose of keeping me alive.
"So, have you heard about Jennie and her new girl?" Lisa asked me.
"Huh?" I asked.
"Jennie is in a new relationship or something" Lisa said.
"Hmmm. Really?" I asked.
"Yeah" Lisa said.
I just shrugged after that. I don't know what to react or feel. Do I even have to? I don't know, really.
Because it's been months since we broke up. I'm not sure if I still have the right to feel things for her or her to me. I was hurt, yes. She broke up with me and I think I kinda wanted it too during the process of forgetting and moving on.
I felt free.
So, I guess hearing that she has somebody else didn't really hit me that hard or maybe because I don't believe she was in a new relationship. And knowing Jennie, she'll be bored with the relationship sooner or later.
No, don't get me wrong. I don't feel any resentment towards Jennie. It's just that, that's how we broke up. She got bored and I think I was too. But, okay I won't judge her basing on how I've been through.
I finally had the chance to just chill and not think of anything. My paper's almost done, there's four months 'til graduation and I think everything is going well for me.
I get a piece of nachos and dip it in salsa when we heard the café chimes made a sound. New costumers entered and I wished I didn't see who it was.
It was her.
But what baffled me was why do I feel my stomach's been stabbed. That suddenly it was hard for me to breathe. That my heart feels like burning I'm afraid that any second it's going to stop beating because suddenly it hurts.
I feel pain.
Seeing her with somebody else.
"Uh- L-lis, I'll be g-going" I told Lisa, not really sure why I am stuttering.
"Huh? Chongah you just came! And you only ate a few not even a meal. That's not totally you. Look you've got thinner" Lisa told me while raising my obviously thin arms waving it like a Jell-O.
