It turned out that it had been a few months since I broke down and secluded myself in my cottage. Not just days or weeks, but months where I hadn't seen the light of day, trapped in my own mind where nothing could have reached me. No trouble nor good could have reached me.
Ever since I had surfaced back to reality and slowly integrated myself back to society by not going back under the mist, no matter how much I wanted to, I had no time for myself. I wasn't left alone even for a second as I roamed the pack house, just trying to see if I could find something to do at the same time as I looked to see if something had changed while I was trapped in my nightmare.
Lilian or Elizabeth were always with me, dragging me everywhere they went around the house, even if all they were doing was getting a drink of water. No time for myself to be left alone with my thoughts and get pulled back under in the safe haven I had created, which was their goal, I was sure of it. Otherwise why else would they go the extra effort to make sure I was accompanied by either one of them?
Nothing much had changed, even the rest of the Reons pack avoided me the same as before. I knew they were still around, otherwise I wouldn't have smelled their scents lingering around a few places in the house. Although I wonder why they hadn't left yet and gone back to Osoria after all this time? Had something else happened to their homes while I was off in my own world?
Sadly, I couldn't have asked Lilian or Elizabeth about this because every time I brought it up, they shot me down and changed the topic. They must thought it worked and I didn't notice they avoided the topic at all but I did. After days of failing to get a legitimate answer from them, I was determined today to have my questions answered, no matter if I didn't like what they will tell me.
However, the moment I woke up today, I found a breakfast tray and a note lying on my bedside table that said Elizabeth and Lilian were going to be busy for the whole day. Today of all days when I was determined to get answer, they decided to leave me alone. After days of hoping I have a moment to myself where they weren't firmly at my side, now when I actually wanted them around, they weren't here.
They might have sensed I was going to bombard them with questions today which was why they took off and left me alone. With nothing else to do and filled with the need to get answers about the Reons pack, I trudged back to the pack house, hoping to find either one of them immediately.
I still wanted to avoid the topic of my Rosewood pack altogether, but I wouldn't be able to bear it if something else had happened to the Reons pack and the others just because I was a coward, so afraid to know the truth because I know I wouldn't be able to bear it. I wouldn't know what to do if something had happened, something I could have prevented if I wasn't a coward, which was why I wanted to know the truth.
As I walked, my body still slowly getting used to the feeling of being up and about, I remembered what happened yesterday when I had shifted again and joined the Alcatrozz pack for their hunt. My bones felt stronger in my other form, freer, as if nothing could have come to harm me if I stayed in that form. Even the truth didn't seem to matter because the problems which had caused a never-ending turmoil in my body seemed nothing but a distant dream.
It was a nice night to hunt and join a pack to be the beasts that we were, except for the glaring annoyance I had that kept dogging me the whole time. Back when I was trapped in the arms of the nightmare, I distinctly remembering thinking about my problems that could be classified as either something which would remain confusing no matter how long time passed or something I would eventually come to understand.
Unfortunately, one of my problems was the idiot who belonged to the former, someone I couldn't comprehend no matter how hard I tried. I couldn't shake him off no matter how many times I got away from him, even when the entire pack was hunting, I felt him constantly around me when he should have been looking for prey. I didn't think he considered me one, because no matter how pathetic I had been acting these past few months, it would be a huge blunder if he thought he could take me on just because of how pitiful I was acting.
