Anna's life

Chapter 20

Anna

"Anna come in honey time for dinner" my mother said to me from the kitchen as I was playing in the back yard

I immediately got up and made my way inside for dinner

My mom hugged me tightly and kissed my head before handing me a plate with my favourite food

Steak with mashed potatoes and sweet corn

"Here you go honey" my mom said as she handed me my plate

"Thank you mom" I said and sat on the table

"So how was your day today?" I asked my mom from across the table

"It was fine you know same old work" She said and I nodded

"How was your day Anna?" I frowned a little to her saying my name in a sentence like this she usually used some kind of nickname

"It was good actually" I said and I saw her facial expression change to annoyed as she put her fork down

"It was good?" She asked me and I immediately got confused

"Yes it was good mom" I said again and I saw her get angry

"So all of this was for nothing?" She asked almost yelling

"All of what mom? I don't understand" I said and she stood up coming to me

"You killed me just because you couldn't stand another 'good day' at school?!"she screamed at my face and I felt tears coming to my eyes

"Mom it wasn't my fault I didn't know I swear I never wanted to hurt you" I said crying

"You're a selfish little girl who only thinks about herself , you deserve all the pain in the world" she screamed

"Please mom I love you I'm sorry" I begged

"No!You're not my daughter I hate you Anna you took away my life!"she screamed and grabbed a knife from the counter

"Now I'm gonna take yours!" She said and brought the knife to my chest stabbing me

I shot up from my bed feeling a stabbing pain on my chest making it hard for me to breathe

I was drenched in sweat , crying and shaking like crazy while gasping for air

This was the 5th time I've seen this nightmare the last month

The first one was the next day after Calum's birthday

I got up from my bed gasping for air trying to control my breathing before I woke someone up

I haven't told any of the guys about my nightmares because I knew the would want me to start therapy again since I can't handle it on my own

But I can I don't need therapy

I'm okay

I was pacing around in my room trying to get some air in my lungs but nothing seemed to work and my chest felt like I was having a heart attack

After 10 minutes of trying I decide to wake someone up

Calum had a night shift today so I had to wake someone from the guys