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ーworst behaviour

i had been introspectingfor days, for hoursand somehow i am not at easei know the past is long gonebut not the apologiesi hate how i let it bei should have done somethingback thenwhen i was at my worst behaviourwith heather and my old friendi hate...

ओह! यह छवि हमारे सामग्री दिशानिर्देशों का पालन नहीं करती है। प्रकाशन जारी रखने के लिए, कृपया इसे हटा दें या कोई भिन्न छवि अपलोड करें।


i had been introspecting
for days, for hours
and somehow
i am not at ease
i know the past is long gone
but not the apologies
i hate how i let it be
i should have done something
back then
when i was at my worst behaviour
with heather and my old friend
i hate to even remember it
i hate the way i was
i hate that older, insufferable
version of myself
the one that had it all
and took it for granted
i am scared
i know sugar won't be
proud of me the least bit
if i tell him what i did to them
he won't be impressed
or worse, he wouldn't
like me no more
but that's not the point
i don't want to fix my mistakes
to put a nice
impression on my boyfriend
i want to fix my mistakes
because two angels deserve it
i hadn't been the best to them
it's left me aching for days
what do i do now?
how should i get rid of this guilt?
i look myself in the mirror
a nasty habit of mine
whenever i'm crying
at this point
i even hate making
eye contacts with myself
i hate living with guilt
i hate this mess
i look into the mirror
a bit more
and a voice in me said
keep no secrets no more
and that gave me strength

i have to tell it all to sugar
i need to be honest.

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Heather | tk ✔जहाँ कहानियाँ रहती हैं। अभी खोजें