PLEASE SAY "DON'T"

Part 41- what now?

PART 41

EYEDEA'S POV.

Everyone congratulates me.nanalo ko. =)) YEHEY! Kaso.. nagtataka ako e. kanina ko pa hindi nakikita si IRVIN. atsaka, bakit hindi siya nanalo?!!!! ang galing galing niya kaya!!!! =___=

atsaka, kelangan niya toh para sa extra curricular! =\\

DOn'T tell me?!

I overheard the conversation of the 2 girls beside me.

"alam mo bang kaya hindi nakasali yung gwapo at super talino at super galing na si Irvin is because he gave his form to a girl! "

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GHAD! IRVIN! I HATE YOU!!! =______= HOW COULD YOU! BV! =____=

bakit niya ginawa yun?! Nakakainis! Anu ba yan?! Oo nga nanalo ko! Pero. badtrip! Hindi akin yung form. ambobo kO! bakit di ko naisip agad yun!!! gusto ko nga gawin ang lahat para siya maging valedictorian eehh. I joined this contest for fun, siya he wants to join this because I believe its his dream, its what he wanted.

and Gosh , I just took it away from him?! And he just gave it up for me?!

I'M so stupid for letting it happen just like that!

If I'm gonna ask him , why did he do that?!

ano isasagot niya..??

Mahal niya ako?! kaya pati yung ikasasaya niya ibibigay niya sakin?! Putek! mahal ko din siya. at gusto ko din siya!

pero dahil sa ginawa nya. feel like i'M SELFISh!!!!

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bakit kasi pag nagmamahal pati yung pangarap isusuko?! That's not love! That's stupidity. You're using your HEART only .. but its not supposed to be like that. you also need to use your brain... =_____=

Irvin, why?

masyado ka mabait. =_= and I don't deserve someone like you . =_= it just not right. I'm not worthy of your love. kasi.... kahit anong pigil kong masaktan ka,,, kahit wala na kong ginagawa...

nasasaktan ka pa din...

at ayoko nun. =___= hindi ko ginusto yun. ='(

i'm on my way now back to the school...

and siya yung unang sumalubong sakin.

"Eyedea, ang galing mo... ikaw ang nag first!!! =)) I'm so proud of you... mas magaling ka talaga sakin... "

Wth?! papanggap na lang siya na hndi kanya yung form?

"Ahhh." -_______- I can't even look at him. It hurts

"You deserved it.. "

"for you. " iniabot ko yung plaque and the painting naka cover pa yung painting. "It wasn't mine at all. That wasn't my form.. Thanks for the concern Irvin. BUT I DON'T NEED IT. "

Kumunot yung noo niya.. "eyedea.. "

"Why did you do that? You think I wouldn't know? Why irvin?"

"It's because .. i want you to be happy... because I love you... " shaks! =___= ayoko na =(( gusto ko mang maging masaya dahil sa pagka panalo ko.. kaso di maalis yung panghihinayang. =____= siya dapat yun at hindi ako.

"sa tingin mo, hindi kita mahal?! Irvin.. di lang ikaw nag nagmamahal... di lang ikaw ang gustong maging masaya ang mahal niya... kaso sa ginawa mo irvin... That wasn't love at all.... =(( If it's love... It wasn't the kind of love I wanted.. you don't always need to sacrifice... you also need to be happy... kaso... Irvin... pinagkait mo na yun sa sarili mo... dahil sakin?? =_______= if that's the kind of love you're offering , then NO THANKS... i don't need it. =( tsaka, mo na ang sabihing mahal mo ko.. pag handa ka ng bigyan ng kasiyahan yang sarili mo... kasi di mo masasabing mahal mo ang ibang tao kung sarili mo hindi mo minamahal...Hindi lang sa isang tao dapat umikot ang mundo mo.. kasi pano ka, pag nawala yung taong yun? wla ka na? sira na mundo mo??? sorry irvin.. "