Kismet

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When I heard a sound outside and recieved a message from Syver at the same time, I look over at Vanni who's sleeping peacefully in her bed. I wanted to wake her up but I'm afraid she might not come back to sleep, kaya wag nalang.

"Hi," Syver greeted me with his usual smile na pati ang mata'y nakangiti.

Nervously, I smiled back. "Hi... good evening..?" patanong na bati ko kasi hindi naman na evening.

We went down the shores. It was windy and cold, lalo na at short lang ang sleeves ng damit na suot ko. Niyakap ko nalang ang sarili ko, that way it'll be a little less colder.

"Why did you want to talk to me pala?" tanong ko dahil malayo-layo na kami sa hotel pero tahimik pa rin. It was a comforting silent, but I was curious kung ano ba ang sasabihin nyang kailangan ganitong oras pag-usapan.

"Mamaya na." he said like he wasn't ready. "Kayo lang ba dalawa ni Vanni nandito?"

"Yeah..." sagot ko.

Syver nod, "Kuya mo? 'Di nyo kasama?"

"Hindi. He's not close with Van." I said as a matter of fact. "What about you? Kapatid mo lang?"

"Oo. Kami lahat, pati si Joshua, nakisama."

We started talking about little details and nonsense things about us and the surroundings. Just like the usual. Kaya naman ay nawala na iyong kaba ko kanina.

I totally ignored him for the weekend, akala ko ay magtatampo siya. I'm glad we're talking like the usual, pero shouldn't he open up about it?

Kasi I was hoping he would.

After a little while, we decided to have a snack outside the resort. Ang sabi nya ay may nakita raw siyang convienient store sa kabilang kanto on their way here kaya naglakad kami roon.

"Natatakot ka ba?" he suddenly asked pagkalabas namin.

"Me? No, bakit?"

"Kasi 'di tayo familiar sa lugar tapos anong oras na rin." sabi nito. He couldn't even look at me for a while.

Napalunok ako bago tumawa sa kanya. I walk away first, he followed right after.

"Bakit? You scared, Syver?"

Agad-agad ang pag-iling nito. "Hindi, a! Grabe ka sa akin, Azalea."

I just laughed at his response, I'm pretty sure he's a little scared. Gaya nung manonood dapat kami ng horror, but I think he got scared so sinuggest ko na i-change ang movie.

We ate noodles while he was talking about his brothers and telling me I should meet them soon.

"Si kuya Yver nga, may crush daw 'yon sa kaibigan mo. Si Vanni!" he said and laughed at his own statement. Natawa rin ako dahil muntik na ito mabulunan.

"Slow down, Syv." sabi ko.

Tumango siya't nagkwento na naman, but I noticed he was slowing down talaga.

Nang pabalik na kami sa resort, he started being quiet. Hindi na kagaya kaninang pa-kwento-kwento. Is this his way of saying na turn ko na mag-kwento?

Wala akong maisip!

"About what you... said last Friday," I trailed down, scared I might scare him away.

"Ah, yon.. ano.." napakamot ito sa batok nya. I stopped walking to look at him, tumigil din naman s'ya. Will he take that back ba? I'd be mad if he will.

Pero mas nagulat ako sa sunod niyang sinabi.

"Totoo nga sabi 'yon."

Napalunok ako at naglakad ulit, I didn't know how to answer that. Should I tell him I will miss him din ba? Before I could walk far, Syver stopped me.

"Azalea, gusto kita. Lamobayon?" he said and that's when I noticed how red his face was. He was looking at my face pero nang magtama ang mata namin, umiwas siya.

"Syver..." tawag ko.

Awkwardly, he laughed. "Gusto ko lang naman sabihin."

I gulped. Should I say something? Like what? I was caught off guard na hindi ko malaman anong isasagot!

"Nagsinungaling ako sa'yo dati. Sabi ko, hindi naman kita kilala, pero kilala talaga kita, 'no! Ikaw 'yong babaeng paulit-ulit sa ads habang nag-aaral ako sa GenMath dati. Mahina ako sa Math, e." he paused and laugh as he recall those moments.

While I was here, standing, looking at him in awe. Gusto ko siya i-confront about it, but he confessed it to me himself.

"Tapos nag-cute-tan ako sa'yo dati. Naging crush pa kita saglit nun. Naalala ko nawala din 'yon, pero nung naging classmates tayo, nagustuhan kita ulit. Hindi lang basta gusto na crush-crush...."

He looked at me in the eye after those words. Nakatitig lang din ako sa kanya, waiting for him to finish his words.

"Alam mo na 'yon," he added after a little while. Umiwas ako ng tingin bago mahinang tumawa.

Bakit parang ang cute niya ngayon?

"Gusto ko lang sabihin, a? Hindi ko sinasabing gustohin mo ako pabalik."

Tumango ako.

I wanted to tell him how I feel about all these but my feelings for him isn't as deep as he feels for me. Besides, I'm not yet ready to be in some serious relationship.

"Let's... talk about this some other time." I told him before walking slowly first.

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thanks for tonight, Syver! 💗