The Tenant of Wildfell Hall by Anne Bronte

L. DOUBTS AND DISAPPOINTMENTS

On reading this I had no reason to disguise my joy and hope from Frederick Lawrence, for I had none to be ashamed of. I felt no joy but that his sister was at length released from her afflictive, overwhelming toil—no hope but that she would in time recover from the effects of it, and be suffered to rest in peace and quietness, at least, for the remainder of her life. I experienced a painful commiseration for her unhappy husband (though fully aware that he had brought every particle of his sufferings upon himself, and but too well deserved them all), and a profound sympathy for her own afflictions, and deep anxiety for the consequences of those harassing cares, those dreadful vigils, that incessant and deleterious confinement beside a living corpse—for I was persuaded she had not hinted half the sufferings she had had to endure.

"I was just coming to see your sister, Mr. Markham," said she; "and so, if you have no objection, I'll accompany you home. I like company when I'm walking out—don't you?"

"Yes, when it's agreeable."

"That of course," rejoined the young lady, smiling archly.

So we proceeded together.

"Shall I find Rose at home, do you think?" said she, as we closed the garden gate, and set our faces towards Linden-Car.

"I believe so."

"I trust I shall, for I've a little bit of news for her—if you haven't forestalled me."

"I?"

"Yes: do you know what Mr. Lawrence is gone for?" She looked up anxiously for my reply.

"Is he gone?" said I; and her face brightened.

"Ah! then he hasn't told you about his sister?"

"What of her?" I demanded in terror, lest some evil should have befallen her.

"Oh, Mr. Markham, how you blush!" cried she, with a tormenting laugh. "Ha, ha, you have not forgotten her yet. But you had better be quick about it, I can tell you, for—alas, alas!—she's going to be married next Thursday!"

"No, Miss Eliza, that's false."

"Do you charge me with a falsehood, sir?"

"You are misinformed."

"Am I? Do you know better, then?"

"I think I do."

"What makes you look so pale then?" said she, smiling with delight at my emotion. "Is it anger at poor me for telling such a fib? Well, I only 'tell the tale as 'twas told to me:' I don't vouch for the truth of it; but at the same time, I don't see what reason Sarah should have for deceiving me, or her informant for deceiving her; and that was what she told me the footman told her:—that Mrs. Huntingdon was going to be married on Thursday, and Mr. Lawrence was gone to the wedding. She did tell me the name of the gentleman, but I've forgotten that. Perhaps you can assist me to remember it. Is there not some one that lives near—or frequently visits the neighbourhood, that has long been attached to her?—a Mr.—oh, dear! Mr.—"

"Hargrave?" suggested I, with a bitter smile.

"You're right," cried she; "that was the very name."

"Impossible, Miss Eliza!" I exclaimed, in a tone that made her start.

"Well, you know, that's what they told me," said she, composedly staring me in the face. And then she broke out into a long shrill laugh that put me to my wit's end with fury.

"Really you must excuse me," cried she. "I know it's very rude, but ha, ha, ha!—did you think to marry her yourself? Dear, dear, what a pity!—ha, ha, ha! Gracious, Mr. Markham, are you going to faint? Oh, mercy! shall I call this man? Here, Jacob—" But checking the word on her lips, I seized her arm and gave it, I think, a pretty severe squeeze, for she shrank into herself with a faint cry of pain or terror; but the spirit within her was not subdued: instantly rallying, she continued, with well-feigned concern, "What can I do for you? Will you have some water—some brandy? I daresay they have some in the public-house down there, if you'll let me run."