God of Desire: RemiXAriella

Chapter 1- ARIELLA

I am sitting quietly on the edge of the railing, when suddenly I hear footsteps behind me. I turn around to see Rem, my Rem. My mind, once chaotic, finds peace in his presence. But just as quickly as he appeared, he vanishes into thin air. Where did he go? I step down from the railing, not by jumping, but by simply turning around and getting down from the edge. "Rem? Where are you?" I call out, but there is no response. As I am about to turn around, a shadow catches my attention. A little girl emerges from behind, holding a bowl filled with fruits and nuts. She is coming towards me. Before I know it, a scream escapes my lips, "DAD, DAD HELP ME, DAD PLEASE SAVE ME, MOM, DAD, UNCLE AIDEN!!!" No one comes to my rescue. The girl continues to approach me, and I instinctively start moving backward until there is nowhere else to go. I recognize her, she is wearing a blue knee-length frock. I know her. It's her. She will take me away. I don't want to go. Her face is swollen, and her body is covered in rashes. Did I cause this? Is it because of me? Suddenly, she reaches me and places the bowl in my hand, grinning widely and motioning for me to eat from it. "No, no, no, this can't be happening... MOM, DAD, PLEASE HELP ME, I DON'T WANT TO GO... UNCLE AIDEN, WHERE ARE YOU... PLEASE..." And then, she pushed me off the terrace... "arghhhhhh!" I jolt awake, in a warm embrace and my dad is holding me close to him. My mom is holding my hand, tears streaming down her face. Dad embraced me tightly. I am safe. It was just a dream. I look at my mom, and she is crying uncontrollably. All I can do is stare at her silently. "Ari, my baby..." she chokes out a sob, and I feel pathetic for putting them through this. Dad looks vulnerable and helpless.And mom! She looks terrible...I despise making her cry. "Please talk to me, Ari..." Her voice came out in tears, and I have never felt this vulnerable before. I simply embrace my mom and comfort her, saying, "I'm alright, mom...it was just a dream and I'm okay now." She hugged back and said,
"I will be sleeping with you tonight."
I have truly worried her too much, and I hate myself for it. I want to scream, cry, and break things, but I restrain myself from doing so. I can't hurt mom anymore. Despite my fears and dark side, I hold onto mom and dad's hands and say, "Please stay with me here." They both lie down, and my head rests on dad's arm while mom held me close to her heart. I wait until they both fall asleep, then carefully get out of bed and silently sneak out of the room. I miss uncle Aiden. I wish he was here. Once I enter dad's study, I let my tears flow and begin writing in my journal.

Dear Sophi,
It has been more than a year since I last saw that nightmare, and suddenly, I am starting to see it again. I am scared. I wish I could go with you, but I can't. I am so sorry that I can't. I dreamt of Rem today. Will he ever know how much I love him? Does he still remember our promise when I asked him for all of his firsts? I think I won't be his first, although he will be my first in everything. I love him. I truly love him. And I don't mind if he doesn't love me the same way I do. I just want him to let me love him. Will he ever acknowledge me? Will he ever see me? Am I still invisible to him? His thoughts are the only thing that brings me back to my sane mind. I hate that mom and dad are suffering because of me. I wish I am more like Ava. She doesn't give them any reason to worry about her. She is perfect. She has her own friends who will support her all the time. She is a social butterfly like mom. I know they mean a lot to her, maybe more than me. That is why she prefers them over me. I don't hate her for that. I never can.

Closing my journal, I put it back in the drawer. I take out my phone and open Instagram
He shared a post...oh, they had a party last night. He appears as usual, cool, charming, handsome, and beautiful. I close Instagram and open my photo gallery. It is filled with his pictures. Its filled with many pictures but not mine. Its all of family and mostly Remi, From family dinners to him playing basketball, I even have some of his childhood photos that I took when Aunt Teal showed them to me. Looking at him brings me peace. He is the chaotic peace in my dark world. Stop, Ari, don't dwell on it. But still...will they still love me the same when they find out about me? Only Dad, Uncle Aiden, and my friend knows and they have kept their promise not to tell anyone, not even Mom. It's almost six I should go take a bath and freshen up.
What a drag!