It gets harder, with each passing day;
We find ourselves on the brink, being pushed against the wall.
When all the cries for help, when all the silent tears go unnoticed,
Weary wanderer, it happens to even the best of us, and that's fine.
Sometimes the best thing to do is to just curl up and disconnect ourselves from the world.
The heart will ache, our brains will rot and every thought will make us question every decision we've made.
But you'll be fine.
I have suffered myself - how brazen, making this about me for a quick second, but I simply wanted to connect with you on a level where we can stand as equals.
More than two decades of having to deal with things that are beyond my capabilities,
Being an adult faster than I needed to,
Being broken down to the point where I can barely put myself together.
Suffering has become a focal point of life itself;
I have suffered from Borderline Personality Disorder for more than a decade now, and countless other illnesses that have tore through my own humanity.
Imagine being unable to regulate your emotions, having to fight tooth and nail to ensure that everything is calm, that everything is okay.
I have torn out every piece of myself, just to give myself the fuel to keep going.
I have lost a lot of people due to my own actions,
and I have lost a lot more due to my inability to feel.
The mind is a messy place, sometimes it goads you, it pushes you to become a person that you aren't.
That's fine, I just hope that it becomes something that one learns from.
I speak from age, from experience and from all the horrors.
And I want to tell those who are younger:
It will get better.
Not anytime soon;
You are going to hurt and that's normal.
You will bleed out,
You will find yourself dazed, battered, bruised and broken.
But you will eventually get up.
You will find a proper reason to keep going.
You will be able to free yourself from the pain that keeps clinging to you,
And most of all, you will live.
With all the demons, the ghosts and the monsters that lurk in your head.
You will live.
You will become a better person than what you are today or yesterday.
The tears you've cried, they will dry out.
The pain that echoes in your heart, it will stop.
If you need a person to talk to,
I'll be right here.
It doesn't matter what you say, I'll be listening.
I'll be here.
Now stiffen that upper lip up,
Plant your feet.
Grit your teeth.
Keep going.
Just keep going.
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An Anthology of Emotions
PoetryWhen pushed to the brink, when emotions are at an all time high, a writer will write. Against the ebbing tides, against the slowly dwindling time, a writer will write. All of the works written here were written with genuine emotion, driven by a clus...
