Maybe We Haven't Lose Everything At All

Dear Al,
   Hello! How are you? How is your job? I will not ask a lot of questions, cause I am not certain wether you will answer or not. However, there are important things I want you to know.
   I am sorry that I am writing to you a letter instead of speaking with you face to face. Perhaps I am not as bold as are you. You know I love joking when I am worrying. I just don't know how to tell you the biggest mistake all over my life. So..
   We haven't met in nearly 7 years now. When we were together, You was the center of my world, I could not imagine my life without you. Although we were young, we were so in love. I always wanted you in my life. I saw you in my future. But life is the strange thing. A lot of things changed, so am I. After leaving you I changed my home, job, everything, just to begin the new life with a new paper. I also did not talk to my friends all those years. I left everything related to my old life, anyway I thought so. I brought one thing, what, or I should say, who remind me of my old life. My little Elisa. My daughter. She is turning six in the next Sunday. She is a bright girl. As she is growing up, so grows her interest of her.. father. She scares to upset me and doesn't ask a lot of questions. But I see it in her eyes, oh those eyes, twinkling blue eyes of yours, that she wants to know everything. I overheard her speaking to her purple unicorn,
-Lil, why they have both parents, they have theirs papas to take them home from garden, toy store. Where is my father, Lil? Why does not he puff out the candle with me on my birthday just like other fathers. Is he upset with me? I didn't do anything wrong, did I? Will my mumma leave me too?
   Those words were sharper than any sword, it broke my heart. I can't bear her disappointed face. I want you to be in her life. She has a right to know her father. I didn' t tell you about pregnancy, I am very sorry. I knew about it only when I found a new home. I gave up a hope on us. I couldn't meet you again. I was hurt, I was alone and pregnant, though these things can not excuse everything. It is all my fault. Not my little Elisa's. I want you to come to her birthday party with her friends. Please, make her the biggest dream come true. I understand, you probably have your own family, own life. But I don't ask  you to be a member of my family, just visit her time to time. Please, do not judge her life of my mistakes.
             Always yours,
                           Mina