Typical Fangirl

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me: i watch too many tv shows

[5 minutes later]

me: *starts a new show*

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sorry for the lack of updating guys, i've been reading this calum fanfic and it makes me sad how i'll never get the chance to hug him and tell him how important he is to me it's just ugh idk why i get so depressed about this. im so sorry if i sound like a whiny bitch but i love 5sos so much that i've been thinking about them 24/7 lately it's not freaking healthy i have to admit it myself. my heart hurts so much when i think of them, it's not even a joke anymore. and im scared to admit this to myself but im actually freaking crushing on calum thomas hood like asdfghjkl tf i thought it was just a fan-idol love but i guess my feelings for him was more than that i think about him way too much and i freaking imagined my future with him which is never going to happen lol and it breaks my heart to pieces. and its super depressing how no one has ever made me feel like this irl ugh and i broke up with my boyfriend yesterday and its just a bad day for me but then i was like nah why should i be sad??? i ended up reading a calum fanfic and i s2g my feelings for him just gets higher and higher it makes me scared