Broken

Have you ever lied in bed and just cried? Because you think your ugly. Because your not good enough for anyone. You've counted all your flaws from head to toe, making your self feel worse. Cried because all the comments people just blurt out, actually hurt? Cried because your family doesn't understand. They tell you to stop complaining that you have it so much better than the kids in Africa. You don't wanna feel like an attention seeker so you bottle everything up. Around friends and family, you've created this lying smile and people believe it, but then at night, when your all alone in your bed, the girl who everyone thought was so happy is crying her broken heart out.

Yesterday was the day I planned my suicide. I made my desion at 4:36 pm May 16th on a  Wendsday.

I came home from school slung my bag on my bed. I wiped the tears off my face. Eye liner streaked down my cheeks. I felt my phone vibrate in my hand. Hey whore how was your day? I threw the phone at the mirror. The glass shattered around me. I watched the full length mirror fall to the ground and make a bang. My cat watched me from my bed, not even fased by my actions. I let out a sob and fell to my knees. My hand reached out for a decent size piece of glass. I pressed it against my palm and watched the blood rise. The pain took away some of my frustrations but it wasn't enough. I pulled the sleave to my black sweater back. I cut open old scars and a couple fresh ones. I felt a furry little body brush against me. I looked into the sympathitic orange eyes of my little black cat. He purred as if asking me to stop. I dropped the glass from my hand and bandaged up my arm to stop the bleeding before my step bitch got home. I grabbed a broom and swept up the glass. I cleaned up the makeup that cover my face. I glanced at the clock, 3:09, Okay I still have time... I grabbed my phone off the ground. This phones tough! Not a scratch on it, Not bad... I sighed and open the text back up, Sucked thanks for being nice to me step Mommy -_-! I threw it my bed and picked up my kitty, "I'm sorry Chester, I promise won't happen again!" Chester gave me a skeptical look and layed his head on my shoulder. I moved my wavy black hair out of his face and patted his head. I rested him back on the ground and ran down stairs to start my chores. I started with the dishes. Didn't take me long since there was only a couple mugs and a plate. I wiped off the counters, check! Swept and mopped the floors, done. Picked up the living room, easy. Clean Dad and step bitchs room, odd I know but done. Clean Mikes room, gross but finished. Clean my room, my rooms always clean. Clean bathrooms, check check! Do homework, did it at school. I looked at the clock again, 3:30, fuck here she comes...

"Roxii! Bitch where are you?!" I looked at down from the top of the stairs,her sunglasses where pushed back into her fake blonde hair. She was smiling showing off all her ugly wrinkles. Guess her botoxs wore off...

"Right here." I walked down the stairs slowly not wanting to here how horriable I did on my chores even though the house looked prestien. "Welcome home." more like hell...

She looked me up and down, "Gosh you look horriable! You have no taste in clothing! Nothing new right?" She laughed.

I rolled my eyes and went up stairs. 3:33, shes only been here three minutes and shes already made me feel like shit, new record...

I grabbed my keys to my Jeep Wrangler and ran back down stairs, "Going to the store do you need anything?"

"Yeah a new step daughter the one I have is a bitch!" She laughed at her joke, "I'm on a roll today!" she sat on the couch flipping through her Covergirl magazine.

I rolled my eyes and walked out, making sure it slammed behind me. How about some make up that you can eat to make you prettier on the inside cause it sure isn't working on the outside! I started  her up and made her roar. I patted the dash, "Thats my girl!" I smiled and took off. 

A/N: Hi This is the starting of my new story. If theres any mistakes please tell me. I'm not sure if I should contune this one so tell me your thoughts on it. Kay Peace!♥