Why We Cut Ourselves

Cuts~

I don't cut because I want your attention.

I don't cut because I want to be emo.

I don't cut because I want to be popular.

I don't cut because I want to die...No not anymore.

You can't tell me to cut it out.

You can't say it's pathetic.

You can't make fun of me.

You can can't say you would never...I said the same.

I want to remeber what I was like.

I want to never drop as low as I once did.

I want to get better.

I want to keep my scars...They're who I am

I won't be like this forever.

I won't always need to do this.

I won't try to hurt your feeling.

I won't just be able to stop when you tell me...It's like asking a chain smoker to quit on the spot.

I'm sorry that I do this to myself.

I'm sorry this addiction ever started.

I'm sorry that you hate to see my scars.

I'm sorry for the looks you get when you're around me...I know they all wonder why you're with me.

I wish I could stop myself.

I wish I could help you understand.

I wish I could make you feel better about this.

I wish I could go back in time...I would have never started this.

   I know that it's hard for people to understand why we cut. If you haven't gone through something like this, you will never be able to understand. Cutting is an addiction, you may not realize it but it actually makes us feel better inside.

   Most of us don't cut because we want to be emo, or popular, or get attention. We cut because we suffer from something emotionally challenging. We can't really explain why we do it. Sometimes we do it to cry. We replace the tears that won't fall with the blood that flows. Sometimes it's just to show that we're still alive.

   So please don't make fun of us. It's hard for us to deal with all the emo crap you pile up on us. That's not who we are. We are people who have a hard time explaining ourselves.

                                                      Thanks for reading.