I open my eyes in Tim Hortons, leaning on the back of a boy that has his head buried in his arms on the table. His back rises and falls, taking my head over the crests and drops of his breath.
I sit up and the boy stirs, then rubs his eyes. That's when I realize it's Benedict Fisguard, my best friend from kindergarten to middle school.
I forgot you existed.
Shame floods red into my cheeks and plants a thistle in my throat. Not the shame of forgetting him- stuff like that happens (and in all honesty, wasn't it those years I was trying so hard to forget in the first place?). No, it was the shame of what I could remember from last night.
I rub my hands over my face and rub my fingers through my hair where they get caught in the tangles.
"Good morning, sunshine," says Benedict, and his voice has become a lot deeper since the last time I heard it somewhat-sober.
I keep my hands over my face.
"Coffee?"
I nod and he gets up and although I know he'll be right back, I wish he had just stayed there sitting next to me.
YOU ARE READING
clean
Teen FictionAll Anette wants is to forget. Benedict wants her to be clean. She's not sure the two are synonymous.