Excerpts From A Book I'll Never Write

things i'd rather feel at 2am

1. cold water running from the top of my head to the bottom of my toe.

2. sore eyes from watching tons and tons of people talking nonsense on the internet

3. the bitter aftertaste of cigar washed down with water and or even better, something stronger

4. alcohol

5. headache

6. some stranger's skin

7. basically everything else but this crippling loneliness gnawing inside the ever-noisy space i call head

—in which i long to feel something