Facing struggles together ✓

part : 14

In night again same thing happened Shivaay started pressing her neck. After getting his senses back he was scared from himself. He shivered. He tried cutting his wrist with knife but Anika stopped him

"Are you mad Shivaay", she asked while rubbing her hands on him being worried

"Yes I am that's why I am hurting you daily. I don't want it Anika... How can these hands so something like this daily... Just leave Anika leave me", asked Shivaay to which Anika kissed his forehead

"Shh don't worry . I am with you. It was unintentional. Also I am not going to leave you

But same thing continued for some day's which was making him mad as he was unknowingly hurting his love. So he took decision to stay away from her.

One night he came with a girl holding her hand which hurted Anika

"Who is she Shivaay and ...what are you doing with her ", said Anika and seperated their hands but Shivaay holded girl's hand again

"It's my wish don't force me to do anything", said Shivaay and caressed girl's hand

"She is Tara my girlfriend", said Shivaay and excused himself

Shivaay and that Tara came near pool side and pretended that they are dating eachother

Anika saw them and came there angrily

"What the hell is this Shivaay? What's going onn? Why are you acting like you have a girlfriend when you know your eyes tell everything", shouted Anika angrily pulling Shivaay towards herself

Shivaay pushed her lightly as he can't hurt her and looked aside

"Hahaha... I acted that I liked you . I was not in love with you ever.. I was just guilty for marrying you forcefully but now I understood my feelings so I ordered divorce papers. Lets part our ways", said Shivaay and sat neat Tara again

Shivaay holded Tara's hand

"Tara ...how beautiful name . You are really very beautiful like star", said Shivaay and eying Anika from corner of her eyes

"Didn't you went ? Why are ruining our date?", Shouted Shivaay after turning his face towards her

"Calm down Shivaay. Middle class people are like this only", said Tara eyeing Anika with disgust

"Yes you are right", said Shivaay in cold voice but his heart knew how much difficulty he faced while saying those words for Anika

"They don't have any class and self respect", said Shivaay to Tara and looked towards Anika whose eyes were having tears

"If you have any self respect left then get out", said Shivaay rudely which broke her heart and she left from there while crying

As she left Shivaay throwed glass which he was holding.

"Calm down. By the way we can continue our romantic moment", said Tara while caressing his chest but Shivaay pushed her harshly

"Stay away otherwise you will see worst Shivaay Singh Oberoi. I called you for acting not for a real date so be in your limit", said Shivaay in dangerous voice and throwed money on her face

"Just leave now",shouted Shivaay and left from there so as Tara

Here Shivaay came in garden and saw Anika crying on bench

"I am really sorry Anika but I don't want you to di... No I can't think of that even.. I know you are feeling bad but this is better than suffering for whole life with a person like me", said Shivaay and left from there

After 2 minutes Anika came there and saw Shivaay working in laptop. So she sat near Shivaay and holded his hand

"What's bothering you Shivaay what's happening? Why are you tensed ? Why are you hurting me? I know even you are hurt maybe you are doing this because of your illness but Shivaay we can fight with it together na . I can't live without you", said Anika with tears

"I know you don't have any girlfriend you love me", said Anika and kissed his hands.. Shivaay was hurt and still in moment till Anika kissed his hand. He pulled his hand with jerk

"Stop day dreaming and leave me. Tomorrow we will sigh divorce papers and will end this relationship. I am going to marry Twinkle as my nani fixed my marriage with her in childhood", said Shivaay angrily and left from there with his laptop as he knew he will fall weak seeing her tears.. also he can't share bed with her

He was going when Anika pulled him

"Ok then . You can sign but I will not you can do anything to force me but I will not. I am ready to be called as your mist...",

"Shut up..... Don't you dare to take that name from your mouth ", shouted Shivaay from top of his voice being angry

He hate mistress word and Anika knew it. It can be called it as his weakness that he can never hide his feelings hearing that word. Anika got the clue what she needed and smiled

"Ok I will not go and sleep Mr. Good night Mr. Shivaay Singh Oberoi", said Anika and kissed his cheeks

"I love you and will always love you", whispered Anika near his ears and went near bed

"Thanks for giving this room to me", teased Anika

"I....I gave this as till divorce you... Are", said Shivaay but Anika interrupted him

"I am your responsibility ok ok go good night... I am very sleepy", said Anika and layed down

Shivaay smiled seeing his childish wife and left from there. After an hour he came back to see her and noticed her sleeping

"I love you too. Stay happy Anika. I want to delete my memories from your mind but can't do...I want you to hate me but... I don't know I will be able to bear it or not... By if by chance I am successful to get your hate then please don't ever forget me", said Shivaay with tears and kissed Anika's forehead

"Be happy like this .. cute little chil.... I am reason of your sufferings Anika I hate myself for this . Because of me you lost our child..  my baby... Everything happened because of me .  How can I force you in this marriage... I was wrong everytime but never realised hope you could forgive me Anika", said Shivaay with teary eyes
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This whole part is new one . Before I showed that in flashback but now I wrote this❤️