It Was Always You

Chapter Twelve

In all my life, I think the only time I had felt real fear was when I almost drowned at nine years old. Everything was hightened and my adrenaline was sky high. I thought for sure It was my time until a pair of strong arms pulled me from the water, it had been my dad. He saved me from almost dying and since then I had clung to him like a life safer. 

The time had come again where I was scared out of my mind and I couldn't pay attention in my class. I was literally on edge for when Cole would just pop up. That's right, I was paranoid as fuck. 

Someone touched my arm and I jumped.

"Geez, calm down. What's up with you lately?" Patricia's worried eyes scanned my face.

"I don't know anymore." I sighed.

"Kate, we're friends. We can talk about anything, remember?"

"I know. It's just... So much is happening in such a short time."

She eyed me for a while longer then she nodded. I sighed in relief that she dropped the topic. I would tell them everything, just not now I can't risk having anybody else in my mess.

Class finished and we all sat in the cafeteria. I was barely munching on a slice of bread as my eyes were costantly scanning the room. Brandon and Kevin sat in one corner and my brother seemed to be losing it.

"Kate?" Phoebe's voice brought me back. "Babe, talk to us. Something's up."

I sighed as three pairs of worried eyes stared at me. "My mom brought some guy home to meet us. It didn't go that well."

Technically, I didn't lie to them. I just didn't tell them the real reason.

They sighed; understanding that it was both a touchy and a bad topic to discuss.

"We're here if you need to vent, okay?"

"I love you guys." That was for certain.

The rest of the day went by quickly and I was packing my books into my locker when Brandon came up behind me. "You're coming home with me until your mom gets home."

His voice sent shivers down my spine. "What about Kevin?" 

"He'll come over later."

"Is that safe?"

"He's a big boy. Plus, I wouldn't be far away if he needed help." His placed his hands on my shoulders and just like that I was on my way towards his truck.

On the way to his house another Coldplay song played on his stereo.

"You're a big softie aren't you?" I teased him.

He looked at me for a while before he figured out what I was indicating. He suddenly changed the station and some rock song came on. He bopped his head to the beat and drove faster. I couldn't help but laugh at him- despite what happened last night.

We pulled up to his house and I hopped out. He hesitated for a while before opening the door then he turned to face me.

"I'm sorry." Then he swiftly opened the door and went inside.

Confused, I followed after him; closing the door behind me. I followed him to his room and he laid in his bed with his arm over his eyes.

"What are you talking about?"

Sighing, he sat up. "I'm sorry that I put you in this situation."

"I'm not following." I really wasn't.

"This. Us! What we did last night was reckless and so so perfect at the same time." He got up and walked over to me. "All I could think about was the look on your face. I couldn't sleep because I was thinking about the feel of your skin against mine." He came closer and now he was a breath away.

"What are you saying?" I whispered.

"I don't know."

"I thought you didn't do girlfriends."

"I don't." And just like that our lips met and the fire ignited within me again. Tingles spread all over my body and I was kissing him with full force.

My back hit the wall and my legs were around his waist. I don't know what was happening to me but somehow I felt like I couldn't wait, I felt like I would explode if I didn't feel what he made me feel last night.

My shirt was off in a flash and his hands unbuttoned my jeans with ease. He set me down on the ground and tugged my jeans off. His pants were next to go and my legs were around his waist once again.

His mouth found my neck and my back arched in pure bliss. His kisses were so warm and sexy. They continued down my chest and between my breasts where he took one nipple in his mouth and I gasped.

God, that boy's mouth was magical I swear to you. My hips moved on their own accord and my body quivered in need.

His slid my underwear to the side and eased two fingers inside me. I moaned at the penetration but I needed more, I need him.

His mouth latched around my other nipple and he worked his fingers in and out of me. I couldn't take it anymore, I was going to explode!

Without another thought I held on firmly to his shoulders as my orgasm rippled through me. He quickly replaced his fingers with his shaft and he eased into me. My grip tightened on his shoulders and he pressed me harder into the wall for balance.

"Baby, I can't take it slow this time." He said against my skin.

"Okay, then don't." I kissed his cheek.

"Let me know if I'm hurting you, okay? This position is a little exposed rather than plain old missionary."

I nodded, not sure why he was so concerned about this position. It felt fine to me.

Suddenly, he grabbed the back of my thighs and pushed my legs towards me.

Oh.

Now I understand. I felt so exposed, almost uncomfortable.

Without another word, he began pumping into me and I felt something completely new. This feeling was nothing like last night. I mean, last night was tenderness turned into mind blowing sex but now, now I felt pure sex. I felt the raw emotion in him with every push. I felt his need and the enjoyment our encounter brought to him. Shit, I felt everything.

It was only then I realized it was skin against skin, he didn't wear a rubber. My mind told me to stop but my body reveled in the pleasure and it shivered with delight as I came with a loud moan. Shortly after, his body shivered against mine as he emptied himself inside of me. It was a strange yet different feeling.

I definitely need a trip to the pharmacy before I go home.

"This was so wrong." I whispered.

His heavy breathing fanned my neck. "I know. I've never been so reckless before."

I scoffed, suddenly feeling a mixture of hurt and vulnerability. "I'm sure that's what you tell all the girls."

His head rose and his brown eyes met my green ones. "Why would you say that?"

"Nevermind. You need to drive me to the pharmacy." I pushed at his shoulders and slowly, he released me. I winced at the withdrawal.

He said nothing, only handed my clothes to me and dressed himself.

I decided silence was the best thing right now. I knew it was reckless and dumb, so why did I let it happen? I can't believe how stupid I was when it came to Brandon.

Stupid and safe. I actually trust him, strange as it sounds. I know he would protect me, that much I felt during our raw encounter.

He drove me to the pharmacy and I bought the morning after pill. I contemplated if I should buy a pack of birth control as well but I decided against it. Whatever it was between Brandon and I, it needed to stop even if it cost me my heart.

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