everyday, I look at this and wonder what we could have been
from the year of 2023 were I first found it, I was astonished. Amazed. It was a fresh experience to read. Good characters, good writing, and the way it flows; it felt natural. it felt like real human people, and before I knew it– I was in a world of fiction.
I shed tears. I laughed at misery. I screamed and I was cheering on them behind a screen. I knew they weren't real. Their just words, but every emotion and every action they made felt human. It was weird to imagine them as just characters but it was also weird to imagine them as actual people.
My heart, when I saw, the fic hasn't been updated– i felt the same feeling as when you discovered an old favorite fanfic was discontinued were the big lore was starting.
(this is a joke)
I stared at my phone, terrified. wondering when the next update might be, wondering if I'll ever read the next chapter again. wondering if I'll see the notification of this fanfic being updated.
At night, I couldn't sleep. knowing that my favorite fic hasn't been updated.
I had eyebags.
I was starving, thirsting. everyday, I search "obey me male reader" and feel a pang in my heart when no fic can help fix the hole that you've left.
Ill grow old, and this will still remain unfinished.
ill forget about this, and I'll never reread it again.
ill forget you, the one who I adored the most.
Ill forget everything that I've once loved.