@Babyyg93 oh my gosh... Both these things are really familiar to me. I'm sorry! I don't wanna get settled into any life until I have it more figured out: school, job... and yeah, I don't wanna stay in my own state.
For your relationships, there's someone I was told a while ago that has really helped me. "Love does not equal compatibility." Romantic love simply can't "overcome all." If you do figure it out, talk it out and discuss, that would be wonderful of course, but without that...
Up since 4 am sounds stressful TT Did you figure anything out? Also, what country do you wanna move to (if you're comfortable telling)?