Meg

“You’re so pretty!”
          “You’re so hot”
          “You’re gorgeous!”
          “You’re so cute!”
          “You’re so sweet”
          “You’re such a light”
          
          Then why do I feel so alone?
          Like I have God and that should be enough, it is enough. But idk its a struggle sometimes when I realize I’m not as important to others as they are to me.

Chat…we need to talk about something…
          Bc there’s no one I can go to with this irl…
          
          Yk how I said I wanted to tell my sister that I like Graham, and I said I wimped out?
          Well the reasons I wimped put is cause 1. I had a bad feeling in my stomach, and 2. I said to God “if she brings him up again I’ll take that as my sign to tell her” and she didn’t…
          
          There’s more and I think I need to take a step back…
          
          Today my parents asked my sister if she thought she’d ever date Graham, and her answer wasn’t exactly no… and she talks about him nonstop…
          
          And I had a dream that felt like it was telling me to back off a bit…
          
          Chat I’m cooked :(

Thanks for the follow! I appreciate it <3
          
          

Listen, I love my parents, I really do, but… can I just go get adopted by Ryan Reynolds and Blake lively real quick?
          Have you seen the way that man looks at little gir—- wait that doesn’t sound right…
          Erm
          Okay like 
          https://www.instagram.com/reel/C7E1i-3xxEW/?igsh=M2xpc2hhMHV4NmIy
          Watch this and tell me you don’t get it.
          https://www.instagram.com/reel/C7HwnnePBQq/?igsh=MXhzM3FrYTB3cDl6dQ==
          Look at that. He looks at her like she’s the child he gave birth too and I’m not okay I need to hug him immediately.

Bruh I’m literally insane
          Bc I want to be loved and payed attention to
          
          But the second I feel like someone pays attention to me I get scared that I’m a weirdo that should be embarrassed
          
          Like omg Gurl what?
          
          I hope I’m cute tho bc this man is an observer.

Yet another day of my sister not taking me with her on her daily adventures bc she think I’m still a little kid that would get bored :(
          
          As if it hasn’t been proven otherwise

3am thought time (you’re welcome)
          I often wonder if Bob ruined me or set up my future for me. 
          For example, when I first met Bob we clicked immediately. I mean I got a little nervous bc I have social anxiety but it was comfortable for the most part, then i liked him and he said he liked me and I got all these butterflies, and nausea. 
          Now after all that’s over and done with, I like a new guy, he made me feel butterflies and nausea immediately. And idk if it’s bc 1. im ruined and im scared, 2. if it’s a gut feeling that im gonna get hurt or something isn’t right, or 3. if it’s just cause I really really like Graham
          
          So did he ruin me by making me overly anxious about boys, or set it up so that I know when something is wrong, or set it up so that I’m cautious and I’m actually supposed to be that way for the sake of Gods plot?
          
          We may never know. 
          (I hope that makes sense)

Y’all he’s employee of the month at his job, im so proud <3

Confession: when I have a crush, before I sleep, I often stalk (is it stalking if we follow each other or we’re friends?) their Insta or whatever for a cute picture so my scenarios in my head as I’m falling asleep are clearer, and it’s the last thing I see before I sleep…
          
          is that creepy?

“I’m in my room it’s a typical Tuesday night, I’m listening to the kinda music she doesn’t like”
          
          HELP NOT A SINGLE PART OF THAT ISNT TRUE, ITS TUESDAY, IM LISTENING TO THAT SONG AND SHES NOT A SWIFTIE