Rakuwoo

I want to become a director or an actor... filmmaking/cinematography related.

PotatoMan5612_alt

@Rakuwoo y'know I never looked on here and understood why you took so long to write but I get it now and all I'm gonna say is it's your life and no one controls you if your parents don't want you to do something then it might be time to do your own thing
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Diaz9u

I hope it works out for you!!
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Admiral_Danish

@Rakuwoo and how that worked out? Have you covinced them?
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DoctorPHONK

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Hey, umm, I, know it probably doesn't mean shit to you, but, I really like your work! And, I know you're probably dealing with a lot of shit, but, if all comes to all, I'll just ask this, may I have permission to basically copy and paste the Malo story, and credit you, AND finally finish it?

DoctorPHONK

@ExoDus291 I uhhh, do need something though...you see I'm on a phone right? And I CANT COPY THE DAMN THINGS so uhhh...I'ma need you to press the copy and paste key binds or whatever their called and uhh...send em :|
            Aaaand don't worry! I can sense the disappointment in you :>
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DoctorPHONK

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@ExoDus291 oh, umm...I...Huh, I never thought I'd actually get this far, but, little do you know I'M A DETERMINED LITTLE SHIT SO I SHALL ACCOMPLISH YOUR FRIEND'S DREAM FOR THEM, AND I SHALL CREDIT THEM!!!
            I totally know what I'm doing (Send help)
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ExoDus291

@ DoctorPHONK  I've been one of the first to sort of "copy" his story and develop it. I've known Raku for about one year and a half before life hit him hard and I lost all contacts with him. If it makes you feel better, he wants to continue the story, but often dosen't find motivation or is always overworked when he does.
            
            I know it dosen't matter much, especially coming from me, but I'd like for you to sort of adopt his story. I know he'd like that.
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Jimmydobey

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Hey man I seen you've been down some very very dark paths but trust me I lost both my parents to suicide. And went from house to house every day BC cps can't do shit I got dumped 5 times and my fake parents think I'm a failure but trust me you gotta just tough it out I'm going to warn you tho if by the time your reading this if it hasn't gotten better it's only going to get worse but don't let it break you ok the feeling of extreme melancholy that you feel is there to push you against the wall and you have to decide wether your going to get crushed or climb out the window sometimes it's better to use the crushing depression as a tool, a bargaining chip of sorts imagine yourself in a different life would it be better? No that's because you have to fight the riptide drowning you not wait for the water to drain

Rakuwoo

I want to become a director or an actor... filmmaking/cinematography related.

PotatoMan5612_alt

@Rakuwoo y'know I never looked on here and understood why you took so long to write but I get it now and all I'm gonna say is it's your life and no one controls you if your parents don't want you to do something then it might be time to do your own thing
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Diaz9u

I hope it works out for you!!
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Admiral_Danish

@Rakuwoo and how that worked out? Have you covinced them?
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Rakuwoo

Life update:
          
          This has been a depressing seven months of my entire life. No motivation to do anything, all but nothing... just work and studies. Parents losing faith with me into my future and schooling because I am not happy on the careers they want me to do and chase. I've been compared and told that I need to do better, but it is not easy as it sounds. In fact just thinking about it, I don't see myself having a good/decent future as time goes. 
          
          I know money is good, but does it really make you happy?
          
          I also kept distance with friends because I have a lot on my mind and it includes stress. I don't want to keep ranting, whine and kill the mood. So usually I don't talk about my problems when I am around others. (Maybe for my closer friends.)
          
          And also, months ago. I broke up my girlfriend because it is too much to handle the workload. Pathetic... right? The person that loved me so much that she's willing to do anything, yet I pushed her away. We were together for almost two years. It kills me just thinking about it. Is it for the better? Do I regret it? I don't know. It bothers me till this day.
          
          I am not happy, but this should be only temporary... I hope.
          
          Maybe this is just a part of growing up, in fact I am turning twenty in two days... something needs to change.
          
          I think to myself that I am pathetic, useless, heartless and weak. But that's not the mindset.
          
          I need a push. Something to look forward to. I need to improve.
          
          For a better tomorrow. (sounds cheesy but it's true.)
          
          Just had to unbottle my feelings and thoughts, so sorry readers. ^^'

Jimmydobey

@Rakuwoo I swear to god I'm going to be sad iff you beat yourself up again please and thanks... PS I hope you doing better
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Darkpotato44

@Rakuwoo hey first of all I want to apologize for the continuous comments on your min min x reader. Even if It wasn't intended to cause harm I shouldn't of disregarded the fact that you have a life like the rest of us. 
            
            Moving on I just wanted to say I believe I can very much relate to your pain. Last 7 months have been absolute hell for me as well, I'm trying to push through both the end of high school and my earlier start to college which has been very stressful in itself.
             My social life is also declining since I've been way more anxious and insecure ever since covid hit and for the friends I do have I also hate bothering them with my problems. I once had my girlfriend as well but sadly she has a condition that has kept me from talking to her since November and  we may never speak again. I keep trying to improve but every time I just fall back to my old habits and I absolutely hate on myself for it. I've lost almost all my passion for everything I've ever wanted to do which has made life a script that repeats itself and I a mindless drone that must obey it.
            
            I don't want this to seem like I'm comparing us or like I'm trying to say I'm the one in the worse spot, because at the end of the day that doesn't matter, pain is pain no matter the quantity. I just want to say that you have my complete Empathy.
            
            I know we are obviously two strangers over the internet but if you ever do feel the need to rant to someone who is going through similar stuff I'm down to exchange social media's, and if you'd prefer to keep most things private that's more than fine by me.
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GhostyyXD

Ay man focus on yourself first, find something that makes you happy, the community you created with your stories got your back all love man
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