Romz <3

Okay so i just posted 2 parts (leaflets) of the story to make up for the accidentally posted chapter. And I'll try to continue it with quick updates too. Show some love besties <3

I just accidentally posted a chapter by mistake people forgive me whoever read it... It was a draft Idk how it got posted 

When she replies to all your drunk texts and understands the "aliens language" so now your drunk ass doesn't remember the person who refused to even try reading the "gibberish". Both best friends, both i fell for, one clearly wasn't for me, one seems to be just made to be mine.

Me : what's the problem
          Client: there's water rushing out of the door like in the Blood in the Shining movie
          Me : okay let me sound out a technician, what is your name ?
          Client: Tara and Last name's Swift like Taylor Swift
          
          If it wasn't for the company's policies i would've asked this girl for her insta ID befriended her (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠)

https://www.instagram.com/reel/CubZxckBGDT/?igshid=NjIwNzIyMDk2Mg==
          
          How do I send this to someone without actually sending it? Just to let them know that i thought of them. Even the song playing in the background was introduced to me by them. 

It's really weird and sometimes scary how i don't care about the people around me. Family or "friends". It's like they're just there, won't make a difference if they weren't or if they suddenly aren't. The people i care about.. i can count them on my fingers. And it's weird bc more than half of them aren't around anymore. Some faded away while growing up, some left and some died. But i still care about them bc once i start caring idk how to stop. Even if they hurt me, idk how to move on from them. My idea of moving on not caring about and feeling indifferent about them. When i talk about the people i care about, i feel happy talking about good times and sad when talking about bad times. But others,  I might smile, laugh even, while talking about good times bc that's a good memory and have a grim face while talking about bad times bc they're not good memories. But feel nothing, no happiness, no sadness, no anger, just indifference. And I think it's bad. How i could be talking about a great memory with my mom but I know i wouldn't care if that memory didn't exist. But i feel sad thinking what if I didn't have these good memories with my people, the people i care about. It's bad and scary bc i would die for the people who've hurt and left me simple bc i care about them but won't do shit for people who've done their best for me just as simply bc i don't care. I don't give a fuck about their efforts or their own care for me. Crazy how I won't stand by my brother against my mom even if he's the right one in the argument, neither would i side my mom but I'd stand by this girl living states away against the entire world even if she's wrong. I'd be wrong with her. I hate myself for it and it's a scary feeling but that's just how i feel. Probably need help.

These days I wanna kms a little less. It's nice...

Also after weeks of hearing rumours in the office I finally asked my friend upfront and she accepted to be dating this supervisor more than double her age. Now not to be judgemental but I'm judging. I need to have a word with this man. How does he feel about the age gap? Like i can't stop feeling guilty and hating myself about my 4 yrs gap for over 2 years now, how does he live with it?!? I NEED TO KNOW!! 

When will Indian girls finally be able to go out in public without being sexually molested in the crowd? Can all these old men on the public transportation thinking it's their chance to "bump" into the women all get burnt alive? Almost yeeted this mf out of the moving vehicle.

This girl came out as bi and single to me and i looked at her like YOU'RE ONE GIRL IN THE ENTIRE OFFICE I HAVE NO INTEREST IN!! Then she went ahead and said how she has a crush on the newly transferred Belarusian HR and BITCH SHE'S MINEE!! I told her the HR is straight (idk if she is ) just bc she's spoken and opened up to me a lot more than she has to anyone else heheh