was reading through the story again
and i realized
prithvi doesnt fullly hate nandini even after the seperation, because deep down he knew that whatever the reason for their seperation was beyond them (something he just cant feel settled with)
he hates the fact that nandini didnt disclose the reason, obviously he figured, but the fact that something out of his control took away the most precious and comforting experience from his hard life, and it only grew the more he had to live with it
that is the cause of his anger, he thinks it was easier for nandini, that she wasnt/isnt suffering as much as he is amd involves herself in superficial things like walking up barefoot, meaning thag he doesnt connecet with it, and he hates that he loves her despite all that
he cant bear it, and he cant bear the fact that why is it so difficult for him to bear it