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So, today is going well. I am late for school, don't finish until 10pm, and my mother is keeping me busy. But later on she tells me something in confidence, but next second she makes me trip and fall, laughing at my clumsyness even though I hurt my arm. She tries to force me up when obviously I can't get up, and i use the thing she told in defense, because i tend to lash out or become angry quiet when hurt, angry, or vulnerable. Now, later on, i try to ignore it and just let it be. She lets it be too. But as i am getting ready for bed, she keeps asking questions and makin gme grab things and do things for her when I just want to go to bed. So I become angry and frustrated again, but now i am angry quiet. She, "obviously", catches on and tries to use it against me. Now at 11 something at night she throws it my face that I "hurt her". i don't know what to do and I am so frustrates, and angry, and tired. I just want to be able to be left alone, but I can't until I am out of this fucking house, which won't be happening for another 2 years. FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*Cut to me now sobbing quietly because nobody can do anything without my mother fucking noticing*