notTayyaba_17

Hi love
          How are you?
          Remember me?
          
          
          I hope to you are currently accepting reading requests. If so, I would be honored if you could spare some time to read my new book, '’WHISPERING SHADOWS.' It's a mystery thriller that I've poured my heart into, and your feedback would mean the world to me.
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/344687116?utm_source=ios&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details&wp_uname=noFOOKINidea&wp_originator=2eGbBYNVnD%2F6zY0sdqv2xHI%2FCjJIPTXwDnGOOA98zF4%2BXhz7mkEZxxIM84gKP%2BKxIUgFO0EtPxTW0u3rGhi7Wxbh5KcgQtbxtNkQbiPPuewA4krYbDRwKWaz%2BfVs7REC

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Why can't I see your work? I miss it

I'm looking forward to read some good romance books, please suggest some<3

Hello everyone!
          
          It's been a whole decade, since I was last active here. Damn, so much has happened ever since.  How are all of you doing? 
          I feel so so glad to return back here again for a while as my summer vacations are going on right now. There are so many wonderful people and stories here which always tie me back to place. I want to connect with my Wattpad family again! I never expected that school would keep me so caught up, especially grade 12 and now when I think about it, wow. When I joined Wattpad, which was almost the end of 2020, it was a completely different era. I miss reading and writing here so much!
          I'll try as much as I can to catch up with my books that I left here:)
          A lot of things haven't changed tho. Yes, I still write poetry and I'm currently writing a rom-com which is a genre I never even thought of writing. It's definitely challenging but overall, I'm enjoying it!!
          Take care and sending loads of love<333333
          ~T:)

I miss being here a lot. It's been way too long since Wattpad has felt like Wattpad. When I first started here, it was just so different here and exciting. I miss my friends here too. There are so many books that I still have to read, and there are stories that I left in between. I really wanna get back to them.
          
          The main element for me in reading here is that if the author is interactive with you, acknowledging your reactions, that really gives you even more motivation to read further and thoroughly engage yourself with the story, because the magic here is that, you need a companion, a friend to discuss your reader phases, even if you're on different pages, you're still looking looking forward to a mutual expectation from the story that has enthralled you in the first place.
          
          That's the author- reader relationship we have here, but unfortunately it  has been lost for some time.
          
          I stopped publishing my work here, because there hasn't been enough feedback. I realized that I was slowly shifting towards the expectation that writing here would rejuvenate my writing experience, and it did till some extent, but it lacked a definite perception about the writing arc. And frankly I don't write for votes, I write for meaning. 
          
          I might as well unpublish my work completely soon, might as well drop in for reading here from time to time. I'm going to re- work on my writing with people, I can collaborate and connect with truly.

Hi..how you Doing??
          Long time no see :)

Tayyaba, thanks for the follow. Have a nice day/night ahead. 

But when you realize that, for me, it has hurt me a lot. And because it happened a lot with me, it effected me in a way that I developed this habit of thinking thru everything and over analyzing it, even before actually experiencing it, and that made me really critical of what I expected out of a situation. As I said, in search of balance I ended being too critical of every side of the situation.
          
          So, every time I feel like I want to say something I don't align with, or don't feel comfortable in, considering the other person's reaction as well, it gets a lot out of me. But nonetheless, I can't change someone's perception about me, I can only work on who I truly am and want to be, because that's what I can control at the end of the day.
          
          I know this is long, but very much needed.
          
          If you can relate to this, then I must say please don't stop being who you are as you are working hard on becoming who you want to be so don't let that go to waste, because the reality is that you are gonna suffer a lot in life, if you kept on building yourself on the expectations of others. I'm not saying stop being a genuine/ friendly person, or keeping a genuine behavior with the outside world, but all we need to know before dealing with the outside world is whether your conscience aligns with it. Because that's where the genuineness, or honesty truly comes from.

I constantly feel, like if I'm not the best version of myself at all times, of what one would usually expect of me, where it's gonna be about them and their expectations of me every single time, then I think that I'm not a good person, and everything is wrong with me. This gets confusing and frustrating. Getting to know who you are is really tough and a lot of work. 
          You can end up feeling lost and really unhappy, because as you slowly become aware of who you are and how you perceive this world, most of the times you're ever wanting to change yourself, and unlearn things you thought you knew just well and fine, because you develop this sense of individuality slowly and you refuse to fit in anymore or follow what your brain has been 'trained' to believe. That's what growth is, I think. And it's not a miracle, it's a long way discovering when you are truly happy of becoming that person that you actually believe in. If you are always trying to create balance and not take sides for situations in things or life, your preparing your mind for every response you are gonna face and every way you chose to react. Which is a lot, to be honest.
          
          I'm not a perfect person, because I make a lot of mistakes all the time. But at the same it doesn't mean that I don't want to change myself, or I'm inconsiderate. At times, you can get a little too caught up in doing something, that you lose the knowledge during whether it's right or not.