Stell

Hey!
My name is Stell given to me by one of my friends. Honestly, I don't have a true friend. A friend whom I can tell each and everything and who won't judge me. Also, I'm quite afraid of trusting people, of thinking of what they will think of me. For 12 years of my life I didn't have any friends but I made a few in the 13 year. 

But now I don't have them too. I live in my own space. Like far away from the real world. Cause I experienced it for an year  and it was amazing, but just somehow broke up in 9 and I myself got broke up too. So, I've been trying for 2 years to build up my boundaries. Just haven't been able to completely,till now.

I'm 17.

I wanna be an oncologist because of:
1. From The Start and A Walk To Remember-they inspired me a lot
2. My maternal grandma had lung cancer and I know what and how people feel when their loved ones have cancer but my grandma died but with utmost bravery and strength. So, I wanna help people as much as I can.

I LOVE ONE DIRECTION.
I love sports, especially tennis.
 
I'm too emotional  and I let out my emotions too easily and cry(in hiding).

TRY TO FORGET ABOUT MY PAST.

TRY TO LIVE LIFE, WHEN I REALLY WANNA DIE.

MY POEMS ARE MOSTLY BASED ON MY LIFE AND WERE WRITTEN WHEN I WAS FEELING LOW AND BAD ABOUT MYSELF. SO YOU CAN RELATE MY POEMS TO A GIRL WHO IS SAD AND THINKS THAT SHE IS A BURDEN TO THE WORLD AND IS ALONE.

I WROTE A QUOTE ON CANCER. SO HERE IT IS:
'Never make it seem, like you have to bear it.
Always make it seem like a tiny part of your life.'
It means that don't make your life surrounded by cancer. Don't make your life about cancer. Make cancer seem like a tiny part of life. Cause you don't want to give something that bad the significance of your life.

So, that's all about me. I really don't care of what you think about me. 
If you think I'm mad or something, please get a life and stop being judgmental.
I wish to be happy, but I never can be.

Intsagram: stell_24