in the a.m.

life lately 1

i waited in bed for auston to get home from his game in buffalo.

3 weeks into the season and road trips are still tough for me. even after we moved into a nice gated community, living just 5 minutes from steph & mitch, i still get anxious being here alone with the twins.

i miss him so much while he's gone & so do the girls.

i continued staring at the wall in our semi dark room.

the bathroom light was still on, that way auston could get in there & shower if needed or use the bathroom before bed.

that was our nightly routine for away games when he would get home late. the bathroom light on and me in bed. expect im asleep when he gets home.

i heard auston enter the house and walk towards our bedroom.

our bedroom door opened and he walked in, i didn't move or say anything.

i watched as he walked into the bathroom and i heard the shower turn on.

i gathered my thoughts and got out of bed.

"maggie?"

he opened the bathroom door and looked at me as i walked towards him.

no words could come to my mouth.

"whats wrong?" he asked.

i stopped in front of him.

i started crying and picking at my finger nails, avoiding his eye contact.

"what's wrong? talk to me babe."

he pulled me in for a hug and i cried into his dress shirt.

"are the girls okay?"

"yes." i said.

"is steph okay?"

"yes and the babies okay."

"is bonnie okay?"

"yes."

"do we need to address this now or can it wait for the morning?" he asked.

i shook my head and pulled away from him.

i looked at him as he used his thumb to wipe my tears.

"whats going on babe?" he asked softly.

"im pregnant."

"like you took a test?"

"not yet but i know i am." i said.

he hugged me, "are you mad?" i asked.

"no, why would i be mad?"

i started crying harder.

"do you have a test or do we need to get one tomorrow?" he asked.

"no i got some today."

he kissed my head, "whenever you're ready. im gonna take a shower, you do whatever you need too."

i kissed him before we pulled apart.

he got undressed as i got the box out from one of my drawers in the bathroom.

i took the test out and followed the instructions.

i set the 3 test on the counter and then sat on the floor on the bathroom, looking at my phone.

trying to distract my mind for the next 10 minutes.

i scrolled through instagram as auston stepped out of the shower, wrapping a towel around his waist.