Far from the surface

Part title

"Yes." I said hugging James's face.

I'll never be able to stop loving Liam but I refuse to give up what could be a good thing between James and I because of my stupid feelings for Liam. Besides I liked hanging with James he was fun and my problems ceased to exist whenever I was around him.

Now let's just pray that my choice of choosing 'the guy that seems to pull me far from the surface.' Over 'the guy that somewhat sustains me' was a great one.

James smiled widely before pulling my shirt over my head so he had better access to me.

But I couldn't help but note the first red flag.

'He didn't care that I was wasted and high.'

'He just wanted to get in my pants.'

Liam hated the idea of having sex while I was under any influence. He said it'd be a waste of an intimate moment because I would regret it the second I was sober. Though I've never verbally said anything of such sort Liam said 'I didn't have to because my body language afterwards would be loud enough.'

But I still didn't try to stop James, after all I was the one who wanted this. Or at least I thought I wanted this. Maybe I was getting cold feet because for the first time. I was voluntarily giving myself to someone other than Liam.

"You were great last night." James chirped from the other side of the bed. "Wanna go again?" He asked holding a clear bag with white substance in his hand. I nodded hysterically before pecking his lips and getting on top of him. "Looks like we're skipping school today." He said before flipping me over so that he was laying between my legs.

"Looks like it." I said smirking and pecking his lips.

'Liam would never allow me to skip school just so we could get high and have sex.' A single thought slid into my mind but I mentally shoved it away not wanting to ruin the moment. But it was the truth and I hated the fact that it made me feel like I was suddenly drowning in the guilty ocean.

"W- eee need more whiskey!" I shouted and stumbled around James's room. Which caused him to laugh at me. "We're celebrating after my game tonight." He said wrapping his arms around my waist and kissing the crock of my neck.

"You haven't even won yet who are you guys even playing?" I asked turning around in his arms so that I was now looking up at him.

James was fairly tall but not as tall as Liam I'd say he's 6'1 while Liam is 6'7. I couldn't help but wonder who would win in a fight between the two. It would be somewhat amusing to see.

"Montgomery college." James said which caused me to get a little light headed. I slowly pulled away from him before looking at him to see if he was joking.

Oh but he wasn't.

"You're serious?" I asked I'm sure by now I was looking flushed in the face. James remained silent as he narrowed his eyes at me before laughing. "Relax there's nothing to worry about they're trash without their star quarterback and I have a feeling he won't be joining us at this game." James boasted.

But unfortunately for me there was nothing remotely amusing about this.

Liam's the 'star quarterback for MC.'

Which means he's going to be at the game which
also means he's going to see James and I together before I got a chance to tell him. But wait, what did James mean when he said he had a feeling Liam wouldn't be at the game tonight? Was he hurt? Was that the reason why he's been MIA? A thousand thoughts bombarded my mind causing me a crippling headache.

I needed to find Liam and fast.

I quickly grabbed my stuff before bolting through James's door. "I gotta go!" I yelled while running frantically down the stairs and through the door.