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My dad had a heart attack Tuesday evening. He’s okay, but… my anxiety is not.

After being in a toxic work environment for almost 2 years… and 8 months of being back with my dad…
          
          I’ve been working hard to find a better job, a new place, etc. 
          
          Anytime I got a bite, the hook was empty. Two weeks ago I got a call from a consulting firm in Austin, it was a LONG process but I had a feeling if I followed up and kept being persistent, it would payoff. 
          
          Yesterday, the final puzzle-piece fell into the puzzle. I was extended the job I’d applied for. I’ll be leaving the city I’ve called home for so many years and starting a new journey… 

If and this is a HUGE if… I wrote a non Billie fiction would it get read?

I’m a full-ass adult. You know what I shouldn’t have to deal with? Snarky text messages being sent to me by people who can’t regulate their emotions and are constantly overwhelmed by their own doings… despite being given advice by others. 
          Listen… I was raised by a petty queen. My mom was like a dog with a bone. I dislike petty, its ugly. It serves no purpose, its like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die. But, damn I want to be a petty bitch right now! 

I’m getting tattooed on Friday!!!!

For anyone wondering how my week is going… I woke up yesterday to a migraine and got my period. Then 30 minutes into being at work I threw up. This is exactly how I want to spend the days leading up to my birthday.

Talking a friend out of suicide was not on my Bingo card for the month…

January has been the longest year ever! 
          
          My therapist wants me to celebrate my birthday all month long.
          
          My first stop on the celebration train is a new tattoo.

I dyed my hair red and now I feel like a Disney villain. 

Hi, I’m not dead. Just been in a massive slump. I have chapters ready to go. I will try to post them later this month, I have a pretty busy schedule the next few weeks with work and personal issues, but if I can find a moment to breathe I will post a chapter. 
          
          Love y’all.
          ❤️