I've never felt more rage in my life than in this moment. I ran. I don't know where I am going to go but I'm running. Everything that has happened was speeding in my mind. I love him. He loves me. I wasn't supposed to love him, he is not the person I needed to love but it happened. Why did he do this. He's my everything, the one person I've always counted on. The person who has picked me off the ground at my worst. My heart was beating fast and I skid to a stop at a bridge; I looked at the water below. I was so high up that the jump would easily kill me. I took a few shaky breaths as I walked to the edge of the bridge. My mind raced, not one clear thought crossed my head. I closed my eyes, letting a tear drop and feeling the wind and rain around me. My heart was physically hurting, nothing mattered anymore. He swore he'd never hurt me but look where we are. The sadness enveloped my body. The rain beat down on me as I slowly counted down in my head, waiting for the time to come so I could reach the sweet relief of peace. I stepped forward "VENUS NO!" I felt warm arms hug me from behind "I'm right here" Kai cried into my back "Please don't, I'm right here and I will always be right here" I let myself collapse into his arms then he lowered me onto the ground softly. Kai pressed his forehead against mine and his tears wet my face. I let my tears flow down my cheeks. He whispered frantically and held me.
Kai looked me in the eyes and brushed my wet hair out of my face. I put my hands on his cheeks as his wet hair dropped beads of water onto my forehead. I traced my finger on his rough jaw, and outlined his gruff with my pointer finger. His head was slowly lowered towards mine.
I pushed him away "She's the only girl you've ever seen, I've been feeling used but I was still missing you" I backed away from him " I can't see the end of this just wanted to feel your kiss against my lips, all this time has passed me by but I still can't seem to realize it hurts me every time you realize how much I need you" I sighed and continued my rant "No matter how hard I try I can't put anyone above you. I hate that I want you, but you wanted her and you needed her. And never in a million years would I be her." Kai cut me off "I miss you when I cant sleep or right after coffee or right when I can't eat. I miss you in my front seat. Sandy sweaters from nights we don't remember. Do you miss me like I miss you?" I shoved him "Of course I do. I fucked around and got attached to you!" he grabbed me and pulled me to his face "Friends can break your heart too, and I was always tired but never of you." Tears pricked his eyes "If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that shit. I got these feelings but you never mind that shit" I cried "You're still in love with me please just say so" he yelled "I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU" I screamed back "If I were you I'd never let me go." He softly said, and I just stared. I turned my back to him and looked into the distance with deep thought. We love each other, so what choice will I make?
