My escape of reality [D • M ]

OCTOBER

ELEANOR:

The bruises were still there dark as the day I got them. I had to wear jeans and a fucking sweatshirt for weeks and I tried every spell in the book to get rid of them but they wouldn't fucking budge.

I stood in front of my mirror in a bra and panties just staring at myself running my hands over the multiple bruises my father left on my olive tinted skin.

Fuck him

I sighed and tossed on some sweats and a sweatshirt and headed up to the astronomy tower.

Once I got up there I leaned over the railing looking up at the sky, the moon
was particularly bright this evening.

"Fancy seeing you here."

Draco

I glanced over my shoulder smiling.

"Why are you up so late?"

"I could ask you the same thing."

"Touché"

He walked over and leaned against the railing facing away from the outside world.

[flahsback]
I remember vividly the night Draco and I met officially, it was at the astronomy tower he was standing on the ledge of the railing and holding onto a pillar loosely.  He was going to jump.  I climbed onto the railing as well, holding onto dear life trying my hardest to talk him down he just kept telling me to get down.  After a couple of minutes he finally got down than helped me down. Not to mention it was in the middle of a fucking snow storm. After a couple minutes he dropped to the floor and started crying hysterically, Draco Lucius Malfoy was being vulnerable in front of someone he barely knew, which was astonishing to me.  I slowly fell to the ground and just held him in my arms. At that very moment I knew he needed me and honestly I needed him too.

"Hey Draco?"

"Hmm?"

"Do you ever think about jump-"

I cleared my throat

"Jumping again?"

He twirled his rings around his fingers probably regretting his choices of coming up here.

"Once every couple months I think about doing it but it all depends on the day..."

"Lie. I know you, you think about it more than once every couple months."

He glared at me.

"Than why'd you ask?"

"Because I want to check up on you, you check up on me way too much so I'm just trying to return the favour."

He just nodded pulling himself away from the railing and shoved his hands into his pockets.

"It's getting late I should get some rest."

Of course once I ask him he shuts down.

"Classic Draco."

He stopped in his place.

"Excuse me?"

"You heard me."

"No I want you to explain."

"You always shut down once someone shows interest in you Draco and trust me I love you and I want to help you but you can't push me away."

Draco spun around placing the pad of his thumb against his teeth contemplating if he wants to start a fight or give in.

"You've helped me so much and I just want to help you so please Draco don't push me away."

I walked over to him and just wrapped my arms around his torso. His arms stayed glued to his side.

"Hug me back you idiot."

He hugged back with limply.

He left after awhile and I stayed up there for awhile just thinking about life and what I would do after we graduate.  It's scary thinking about that,  what if we all split up and we just stop taking to each other?

I just stared up at the sky and counted the Stars.

1,000

. . .

The next day we were all sitting in the great hall eating breakfast well besides Pansy because she doesn't stop talking so she never has a chance to eat all her food.

"We still planning on going to Hogsmeade later today and them we can get lunch and stop at a few shops!  Oh and-"

I cut her off.

"Bloody hell do you ever shut up Pansy?"

"What! It was just a question!  Bloody hell whats up with you attitude lately? It's getting really fucking annoying."

"Well you're always talking instead of shoving your mouth with food, is also really fucking annoying."

I tilted my head flashing her a smug look.

"Okay okay no need to bicker this early in the goddamn morning now both of you eat your fucking food and shut up."

Simultaneously we both glanced over at Draco who's been quite for the whole morning but decides now that he wants to engage in a conversation.

"Shut up."  Pansy said before she shoved her face full of hot cakes.

I glanced over at Draco but he quickly went back to looking down at his food.

I then looked over at Adrian and he was all smiles nothing could bring him down today.

Absolutely nothing.

That's what I loved about him he's always in a great mood unlike Grumpy over there.

"Hey Adrian have you studied for the Transfiguration test yet?"

"Oh come on Eleanor you know me I don't study, but if your offering to help me 'study' I'll gladly take you up on the offer."

He winked and ran his tongue along his fork while staring at me.

He makes everything so sexual...it was hot

"Shut up.  Your dorm or mine?"

"Yours."

Later that day we all went to Hogsmeade to get a couple odds and ends than went out for lunch at the Three Broomsticks.

I swear we drank there whole stash of butter beer because they soon started to cut us off once it was our 6th round. 

"I'm going to go to the bathroom."