Forgive or Forget

Chapter 34

"Jeenah! Guess what?!" pagkadating na pagkadating ko sa office ni Miss San ay ito ang bumungad sa akin.

"What?" natatawang ani ko.

"Your magazine was so good! Sobrang nagustahan ng mga tao, isang araw pa lang! Paubos na nga rin ang mga stock. Grabe! Na-miss ka talaga ng mga fans mo!"

Hindi ako makapaniwala sa sinabi ni Miss San. Hindi ko akalaing ganun na lang uli ang mararamdaman kong suporta galing sa kanila pagkatapos ng mga nangyari. Mahal na mahal ko talaga sila.

Malaki ang ngiti ko kay Miss San, "I can't explain my feelings right now, Miss San. And I'm very thankful to you. Thank you..." I held her hand. All this time, she's there. Since day 1 of my career, day 1 of the lost Jeenah, day 1 of me doubting to myself, she's there. She never leave me.

"Hay nako, nag-drama na naman ang alaga ko. Baka mamaya niyan, maiyak na ko dito," she laughed. "But you know naman, I'm always here for you. Not just because I'm your manager but I'm also treating you like my preety daughter kahit na 30 pa lang ako!" natawa naman kaming dalawa. "But it's okay, ang ganda naman ng anak ko oh!" nilagay pa niya ang kamay niya sa baba ko.

My first weeks after I came back was good. And now, I have to go to school again. I have to work at the same time study.

"Hi!" my seatmate approached me when the prof left, looks shy. She's preety with her short hair and eyeglasses.

"Hello," I smiled.

She giggled. "You know, I'm... I'm... a fan of yours?" hindi ko alam kung kinikilig ba siya o nahihiya. "I'm admiring you since then," she gave me her sweetest smile.

"Really? Thank you for that. Nice to meet you!"

Her eyes widened. "Oh my gosh! I'm really right! You're so kind and of course beautiful!"

I laughed, "You too. By the way what's your name?"

"Abbi! OMG! Do you want me to send you the activities that you need to do and to pass? Medyo marami ka na kasing na-missed na gawain, like what our profs said. I'm willing to help you!"

Kanina kasi ay nalaman na ng mga profs na pumasok na ko. Masaya sila at gusto nilang habulin ko ang mga na-missed kong acts.

I smiled, "Really? Isn't a burden to you?" nahihiya kong sabi.

"Of course, not! I'm your fan and I'll do anything for you. At saka isa pa... I think hindi ka naman papayag na ako ang gumawa ng iba mong gagawin so sasabihin ko na lang sa'yo ang dapat mong gawin," nakangiti niyang sabi.

"Wow, sure! Thank you so much..."

"It's nothing, Jen! I gotchu!"

Nang matapos ang unang araw ko ay hindi muna ko umuwi. I missed my condo unit but kuya said it's better for me to stay at the the house. I missed the memories there, too.

Pumunta ko sa likod ng school kung saan kami magkikita ni Jiu. This is hard but that's for the better. I missed going out with him...

Pagdating ko doon ay agad ko siyang nakita. Nakatalikod siya kaya hindi niya pa ko nakikita. Damn. How I miss this man. Dahan-dahan akong lumapit sa kaniya at pinilit na hindi makagawa ng kung ano mang ingay. Nang makalapit ay agad ko siyang sinunggaban ng yakap mula sa likod.

Miss na miss ko na siya na para bang gusto kong umiyak dahil sa wakas ay nagkita na rin kami.

I felt him stiffened but after a while he started to caressed my arms that's currently wrapped on his waist.