Worth the Wait | MewGulf

CHAPTER 28

Mew's

After that one magical moment, right now, I am looking at the face of the most precious man in my life. I don't think I can sleep knowing that he's here beside me. His bare skin touching mine and his face found its way on the depth of my neck, which was actually his favorite part of me.

I heard him groan as he grab the blanket. He placed it over his shoulder, and his body yearned for my warmth. It caught me off guard because we both had our skin exposed which made me feel something poking me down there.

I had to control myself because he's sleeping peacefully and I told him to rest after what we did. It probably made him lost all his energy.

While we're at it, I didn't think that he would allow me, actually. I didn't want to force him to do such things with me but he said he's okay with it. It's been five years since we last did that and I couldn't move on from what just happened earlier.

I've missed him so much.

It's already a quarter to 3 AM and I'm not sleepy at all. Though I have to wake up early because Deimos rarely wakes up late. He usually wakes up at around 5 or 6 AM, then he'll eat breakfast and go walk with Mama. I often go with them and then we'll watch the sunrise.

"Mom, how was it taking care of Deimos when he was young? Was it hard?" I asked Mama as we sat in a cottage because Mama wanted to rest as we watch the sunrise. 

"Oh, son. It's really hard to take care of a child but Deimos is different, we were really careful with that child. As a mother too, I was doubly careful when it comes to him because he used to get sick easily. We nearly lived in the hospital every time he's having asthma attacks when he was young. By the grace of God, he's much stronger now." She said, looking fondly at Deimos. 

"I'm sorry, Ma. If I had been gone for a long time and broke my promise to you that I will not hurt him," I apologized and looked at the sun starting to come out.

"It's been a long time, son. At first, I was really angry. I saw how my son nearly died and I saw how he was hurt by what happened. I even see myself to him, but I know it's is part of love, son. You can't call it a perfect relationship if you don't fight, or if you don't make mistakes. I don't even know why you broke up, but I know you were both affected from it. You both had to heal," she held my hand and tapped me on the shoulder to comfort me. 

I've always been looking up to her since then because she's really brave as a mother, and as a woman. She's kind. I remember back when how Gulf's father cheated on them; how she lost herself after what happened, and how Gulf tried to make her happy. It hurts even more knowing that maybe the same thing happened to him when we broke up. I must've hurt him to the point that he'd want me out of his life too. That's why I'm so lucky that he's gradually trying to forgive me. 

"Ma, how are you? I mean, with Gulf's father," I hesitated to continue as it might offend her.

She sighed and smiled at me, "I lost all my love for him."

I went silent when she said that like it was nothing. It was like Gulf's father is completely a stranger to her. "You know, son. No matter how much you love a person, you will get tired eventually if that person continues to hurt you."

It made me thought of something. What if Gulf got tired of me, too?

"Mom, would you allow me to marry Gulf if ever?" I asked all of a sudden. I didn't know what came to my mind but I suddenly thought of that.

Mama looked at me and I think she was surprised with what I said. "Have you thought about it well, son? If you're serious about my son, it's okay with me. Marriage is something sacred to our family, it's something we cherish the most." She explained. "But you two are getting old and you already have a child to take care of. Besides, I'm getting old too. Time will come that I can no longer take care of Deimos."