Luscious Lust

Chapter 31 - Epilog

Five years later 

I watch her run around in the garden. She's happy and full of life, her long, silver blonde hair shining in the sunlight. Lucia. My daughter. Lucius' daughter.  

One day I'll tell her how her father died saving my life. He died defending me, trying to do every wrong he's ever done right.  

I remember how he looked when the killing curse struck him. He managed to throw himself in front of me just in time before the curse would have killed me. I remember how he landed on the ground, his hair spread about, his eyes wide open. He looked still alive , but I knew he was dead. No one survives the killing curse. I remember how I screamed, my heart breaking into so many pieces, waterfalls of tears running down my face. I felt like I've been killed too. Lucius was my heart. Is my heat. And killing him, killed me too. But I'm still alive. 

I remember how I fell towards the ground, on my knees beside my husband. "What have you done?! Why?! Curse you! Curse you all!" I shouted to Triston and the rest of the Death Eaters. I was waiting for them to kill me next, but somehow they decided not to. Killing me was just a way to get to Lucius. Killing Lucius left them with nothing. 

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I visit Lucius' grave every day, talking to him, about Lucia and how wonderful she is. How much she reminds me of him. I can't stop blaming myself about what happened to him. It should have been me laying there six feet under, not him. 

Draco's been a major comfort and support in my life after Lucius died. He's been trying to convinse me that it's not my fault that his father got killed. "He died so you could live. He wants you to live. He wouldn't have wanted you to blame yourself for what happened. It happened. And here you are. Here's Lucia. He saved two lifes without even knowing it." 

I know I have to pull myself together. Lucius and I were together for one year and eight months before he was taken away from me. He's been dead longer than we've been together. But what we had, and managed to create and settle within each other's beings while he was still alive, will never die. He is the very magic in my vains, forever. 

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When I found out I was pregnant with Lucia, I couldn't have been more happy, and sad. Inside me was another witch or wizard growing, a part of me and a part of Lucius. He hadn't left me all together anyway. He would still be with me. 

During my pregnancy months I managed to straight things out with my mother before she died too. She had becomed very ill, beyond curing, and I knew I had to be the "bigger" woman and step up to make things okay between the two of us. We forgave each other. All she ever wanted was for me to be happy. And she admitted that she had been wrong about Lucius. 

I still live in the Malfoy Manor. It's been restored after the fire. It's only Lucia and me, and Harriet, the maid, who lives there. I hired Harriet full-time after Lucius died. Mostly because I didn't want to be alone. Now she's become a part of the family too. 

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One day Draco shows up, with two suitcases, and his son, Scorpius.
"Draco," I say, surprised to see him. "I didn't know you were coming."
"I'm sorry to show up unannounced, but Astoria kicked me out. I didn't have no other place to go," Draco explains.
"It's okay. Come in. You still got your room, you know," I say.
"Yes, I was hoping I, we, could stay till we know what to do and where to go," Draco looks at me and we lock eyes.
"Stay as long as you'd like," I say and smile. 

I knew Draco and Astoria were having problems. Astoria's a real bitch in my opinion, she doesn't deserve Draco. I'm happy to have him and Scorpius come and stay with Lucia and me. 

Days turn into months, and Draco and Scorpius are still living at the manor. I don't mind at all. I'm glad to have my friend back. We're behaving like a family. We are family, but like a family, family. Draco plays the part of Lucia's father very well. And me the part of being a mother to Scorpius. 

Draco keeps his distance, but he's watching you, caring for you. He wants to hold you, to love you, but he's not sure if you'd let him. He never stopped loving you. Astoria was merely a distraction to keep him from losing it, watching you with his father. He misses Lucius just as much as you do, and he feels guilty about his feelings towards you, but he can't help it. Can he ever let you know? 

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Another night alone in my bed. Sleeping. Dreaming. Having nightmares. I wake up screaming as usual, sweat and with a throbbing heartbeat. Night after night for the past five years I've relived the scene where Lucius got struck by the killing curse.
I start crying. Then I get out of bed and put on a robe to go downstairs to do what, I'm not sure. I just need to do something. 

I pass Draco's bedroom door. I stop outside it, just looking at it. I'm so lucky to have Draco in my life. He's been so good to me. Every day he becomes more and more like his father, both in looks and charm. I've never allowed my feelings for him to resurface, feeling guilty about them. But it's the truth. I got very strong feelings for Draco. It's like he's the remaining link between Lucius and me. The connection is strong. And I want it. I crave it. I...
I find myself resting my forehead and fingertips against the door to his room. Suddenly it opens and I stumble inside, right into his arms.
"Draco, I..." I start saying. "I..." I look into his eyes, swallowing hard.
Then he leans down to kiss me. He withdraws from my lips after a few seconds, leaving me wanting more. Leaving it up to me to take the next step. 

I stand up straight and fix my eyes on his gaze. "Draco, I... I know this is crazy, but I... I think I love you. You've been so kind to me, to Lucia... I..." Love and longing hang in the air.
"You love me?" Draco asks.
"Yes, I do. I need you. I...Want... You," I declare, misty-eyed and shaky.
Draco leans in to kiss me again. "I love you too," he says when stops to look at my face. "Always have, always will."
I slither my hand behind his neck and pull him in for another kiss. "Stay with me tonight," I whisper softly.
"Always," Draco says. 

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