Tough Love ( ✅ #13) (2/27/21)

🌺 16. Disguise

"I can't stay here." Can left the hotel room and went for a run reaching the pier and sat on it's edge looking out into the ocean and seeing how the moon reflects on it. Feeling the cold air from the month of October on his skin reminded him of that cold and horrible night he had just passed not even 24 hours ago. He took a deep breath, and softly inhaled the ocean's scent. "I need you." He whispered. "But I can't be with you." His eyes were getting watery. "I can't be near you. so when I go back, I will stay away. I need to stay away. I have to."He tried to convince himself. "Because if I don't I will run to you and dig myself in your soft delicate hands and beg forgiveness." 

He took another breath, "But yet again knowing where you are at, and not being able to see you will kill me." He wipes his tears. "I'm sorry baby, my flower. My love.My angel" He whispered his last words, "I need to leave, I being in the same city will give me the strength that I need." He sighted again and stood up and walked back to his hotel room. He called and booked the first available flight to Istanbul. It was to leave at 3 am the following day, New York time. He packed his bag and left for the airport. He got ready and left for JFK airport. He checked in, and walked through security showing his badge and gun. TSA did the necessary screening on him, and he walked over to the gate. He sat facing the window, hoping that seeing the planes would bring him some sort of joy in his cloud of sadness.

After a few hours of waiting he boarded the flight, and after a few minutes the plane took off. He was finally able to catch some sleep on the plane, when he woke up he realized it was already day time. And noticed he had slept for over 6 hours. I have about 3 left to go. He told himself. 3 hours had passed and the plane's captain announced through the intercom they just landed into Istanbul, "Welcome to Istanbul Turkey, thank you for flying Turkish airlines." Can raised his eyebrows still not wanting to be back in the city that broke his heart. He got out of the plane, and out into the airport, and into the street. 

He gave the taxi driver a hotel address and they left. I'm back, to the one place I don't want to be back and I am here. He sighted seeing the light up city that was in front of his eyes. He looked at his phone and saw it was already 11 o'clock pm. I wonder if she's asleep? Does she hate me? I hope I am able to explain to her what happened. He kept looking out the window, Will she let me explain? Will she forgive me? He sighted. If she does, I will make sure I show her every day how much I love her, and that I hate myself for leaving her, but what else could I have done. My own brother did this to her, to her friends. He swallowed hard in anger. Even if she doesn't want to get back with me I will respect that, and understand it. But at least to be her friend. I hope she accepts me as her friend. If not, then at least she will know the truth.

"We have arrived." The driver said getting him out of his thoughts.

"Right sorry. Thank you." Can paid and walked in the hotel. He checked in and walked in his room. He smiled noticing his room had a balcony view, placed his backpack on the bed and walked over to the balcony opening its doors; making the ocean send slam his nostrils. "I love this smell, it smells like you. She softly smiled and took another deep breath. He walked in and left the doors open.

^^^^^^^^^^ ( same day different scene) ^^^^^^^^^^

EARLIER THAT MORNING! ISTANBUL TIME

"Morning," Burak said.

"Good morning." She softly said coming down the stairs "What's today's plan?"

"Today we are going shopping." Burak asmiled.

"But..."

"Sanem, Can must have told you what to expect."