Being Nash Grier's Depressed sister

Chapter 11

EMMA'S POV
I was failing at acting happy. I wasn't talking to them, I was staring at the wall, thinking about my insecurities. There were a lot. The guys ordered pizza. Maybe I should eat? Make it look like I'm getting better? No I can't. I want them to think I'm getting better.... I want to actually get better but it just doesn't seem like it's going to happen.

Eventually the pizza came and everyone got up to get a piece. I just stayed laying on the bed. It was so awkward. They were acting like nothing happened. Which was good but they managed to make it extremely awkward at the same time. Someone came and lied down next to me. I turn my head to see who it was. Cameron? I was expecting it to be Nash or Matt but okay.
"You should really have a piece" Nash said with a mouth full of pizza. I didn't answer. I didn't even look at him. I could feel the guys staring at me without even turning around.

Eventually I drifted off to sleep.

*morning*
I woke up to the sun in my eyes. I looked to my left and saw that Cameron was sleeping next to me. The boys were all over the room passed out. I got up and went to the bathroom to start getting ready. I put my hair up into a messy bun. I look at my hand and see that some strands of hair have fallen out. Probably from my anorexia. I didn't put on any makeup and wore baggy sweat pants and a baggy sweater so no one could see that I was loosing more weight. They know I have an eating disorder but they don't know I'm anorexic. Honestly I wish they didn't know anything about me. If I hadn't gone on tour with Nash and Hayes then they still wouldn't know and I'd be dead. That's better then them knowing anyways.

I'm literally done with life at the moment. I gained 3 pounds at the hospital. I guess they were feeding me through a tube or something, I don't know but i have to lose it and the only solution is starve. I gave myself one more look in the mirror before going out into the hotel room.
"Hey, Emma do you wanna get some Starbucks?" Taylor asked while looking up from his phone. I guess he got up when I was in the washroom. "Not really but I can go with you if you want." I said grabbing my phone. "That would be nice" he said grabbing my hand. That was weird.

After Starbucks I went back up to the hotel room. All the boys were up and we're doing they're own thing. I hopped into bed and went under the covers. I'm always cold lately it's hard to stay warm. After I crawled in Matt came under the covers with me. He went to put his arm around the front of me but I tuned around to face him.

Now that I know for sure that you can feel my bones through my shirt I'm trying to stay distant. "Emma can we talk" he whispered in my ear but loud enough so the other boys could hear. When he said that Cameron and Taylor's heads shot up and gave each other a worried look. I gave them a weird look before walking into the hall with Matt.

"Emma I really like you a lot and I know this is weird but... Ummm doyouwanttogooutwithme?" He said while rubbing the back of his neck.
"Matt I...........

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